spent some time at boyfriend's house in the afternoon. lunched and watched 'hai pai tian xin' together. and his mummy gave me a bag of goodies again. i feel so bu hao yi si =/ she even taught me how to use the straightener/curler just in case i get my hair burnt..haha! nice aunty =) but i have not figure how to use it to curl my hair yet. shall experiment with it.

left boyfriend's house to meet fairies at parkway for singing session! =p heh! im a funny person who sings without a mic =x just don't dare to sing into it *shrugged and its so much cheaper to sing at teo heng compared to kbox! like seriously so much cheaper! katong laksa and otah for dinner! yummmy!


can you believe this is my FIRST bowl of laksa in my entire life? HAHA! not that i didnt try laksa in the past, just that i have not eaten an entire bowl myself because they were way too spicy for me. hah.

walked to parkway mall for yogurt! sat and ate our yogurt as we talked n talked. next stop to borders to help ryl find some books so she can use up the value left in the card. and this took us an hr. next stop to breadtalk for mok to buy some bread and home sweet home after that!

bus ride home wasssss longgggggggggg....got me emo again =(
i really cant take it as if nth happen. i cant. sigh.

family gathering at MAS! hahahha!! MAS because that is where my aunt works and therefore we can have free karaoke and access to their facilities. heh.


camwhoring with my er jie =p

muacksz!

table tennis with cousins

my cousin itchy hands...totally candid shot...

hah! this is retarded!

and i wonder whether my sis and cousin are out to break my arm...my poor pathetic arm grabbed by 2 monsters! looks as if my arm is dislocated..haha...

headed to east coast for dinner next! da jie's treat today! yummmmyyyy! no photos because we were all busy eating. heh!

and that sums up my entire day!

st john gathering!

headed to gh's house in the evening and i walked like ONE big round before i found his place. did lots of catching up with each other as we had our dinner.

haha! don't ask me why the photo looks so old.

i miss st john days!!!!! =(((

MERRRRRRYY CHRISTMAS!!!! =DDDD

boyfriend told me he didnt want to go out because it would be very crowded -_-'' got me so speechless! its christmas! and we are not going anywhere! boooo =( but oh well...after MUCH thoughts, i suppose its the company that matters. right?

yes right!

so christmas was spent with boyfriend coming over my place, had toast/junk food & watched videos. headed to airport next for our dinner and strolled around.

and the night ended with boyfriend's smiley mocha =))


really simple christmas spent with special someone <3
nth fantastic but i still had fun =)

christmas celebration with fairies!! =D dinner at food for thought!

chocolates from ryl =)


yummy!

shiitake mushroom pasta for ryl, na and mok!

basil presto chicken pasta for me, sian and her friend!

ferrero rocher cupcakes made by ah sian =)

and my little mocha cupcake =)

supposed to be some silly photo...but na and mok SPOILT it! booo!

desperate attempt to get na off the photo...but failed...hahah!

yay! fairies unite!

horrible na loves to spoil photos...

haha! na got cut off...

thats all!

im so into baking these days =)

mocha cupcakes! okay, considering the size, maybe they are not...ahah!



looks yummy??!! =ppp

i think they are, except they are abit not sweet =x but its alright...health conscious people seek for healthy cupcakes okay! low sugar!

here's my attempt to bake cranberry streusel cake!

mummy helping me take out the cake..heh....

here i am cutting and putting them nicely in a box for BOYFRIEND! =)

close up shot! looks yummy right? =)

the flash from the camera make it looks so whitish...

tadah! the cake is unlike the usual spongy kind...taste half cookie and half cake to me...but it still taste good BECAUSE I MADE IT =P

my mum was clearing up the storeroom and she found this bag of keychains that i collected in primary school. haha! ancient silly keychains that i kept...and you know when you buy normal loaves of bread, they always have this square thing used to fasten the bag? the square thing that tells you the expiry date...i used to keep like a big bag of those and i sort them by their colours...haha! sounds silly to me now.

and i chance upon this keychain made in sec 1 during home econs? i think so. its still tagged with my name and class...hahha! scary looking little rabbit =x

and my bomberman keychains...heh...

and results out!! i did better than i expected, managed to pull up my cap...heh =) pat on my back! shall work even harder next sem!!

maybe its still fair afterall...i had my share of unhappiness and happiness...BUTTT....sigh...that unhappiness would probably haunt me for don't know how long ='( perhaps like what boyfriend says...it depends on myself...its really impossible that someone can help me or what...is really up to me to let go...booo! and i don't know how boyfriend can take it easy...i noe we are both glad its over...but prob its only me who went through everything that letting go seems impossible...

press on! i will make it through!

yay!! boyfriend came over my place ydae with a big bag of presents! here's all the goodies that boyfriend bought for me in japan as well as the chip and dale cookies he bought for my sisters =)) thanks dear! <3 ah yes, theres a bag too which i didnt take a photo of it. heh =)


played monopoly deal and uno stacko with bf and sisters. met my secondary friends for dinner and home before 12!

i wish the holidays were a little longer.

random thoughts

-having gone through so much within a week. sometimes i still think everything isnt true. i don't know how to say. i know i shld just move on, but certain scenes just flashes in ur mind and it reminds u of everything. emo. i must stay strong!

-finally changed my phone today! and collected my driving license. heh =) and i only drove out once so far -_-'' i should drive out more.

-my attempt to make waffle was pretty successful compared to previous attempts. hah! just that it wasnt sweet enough.

-boyfriend finally coming back from japan today!

it was all a nightmare, i wished i could just wake up from it. seriously.

WHEE! its the end of exams! =DD really really tiring semester and i hope my CAP doesnt drop...booo! because i know it may...horrendous results this sem =(

its boyfriend's last paper today!! but he's going clubbing with friends =( but nvm...he should have time for himself too...maybe i will stay home and figure out how to make waffle...oh yes..i need a visit to the polyclinic too! actually im quite scared to go alone...='( who knows what the doctor will say...hmmm...

anw, the 4 of us cabbed down from sch to town after our very last paper! din tai feng for lunch! hahah! xiao long baoS =pp walked aimlessly, take photos, played arcade, went gelare! I THOUGHT THEY CLOSED DOWN! but apparently not! and so we sat down for a longggg chat =)

okay, im going to search for a more reliable waffle recipe now! =p



"maybe when u do not expect anything, u would think lesser"

hohoho! after all my sweat and tears, I'VE FINALLY GOT MY LICENSE! =p im so proud of myself because i thought i would have failed. ahha! *pat on my back =)) and yes! byebye to that 'always-shouting-at-me instructor' *waves frantically

now is like a load off my shoulder. no need to be so sian of going driving lessons, no need to pay money to get scolded. whahaha! wellll done =D thanks to all those who wished me goood luck =) they worked. heh. come to think abt it, boyfriend! u didnt celebrate with me for getting my license! grrrr....

anw, now i can concentrate studying for my final exams! which is a big headache! and im seriously getting lousy grades this sem im trying so hard to salvage....cant wait for my exams to be overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

poof! haven been blogging for an entire month!

so so stressed up with everything =(

i cried after driving that day! ='( sniff. okay, actually thats pretty common..i think out of the 12 lessons i had, i cried at least 4 or 5 times. see la, why did i go learn to drive...make myself go thru unnecessary emotional stress. but i think its attributed to the instructor la...hate it when he shouts at me. hate it when he gets impatient. GRRRR. i always complain to yifang then she told me this 'tell him....shout somemore at me and i bang ur car' and all the nonsense...haha...so irritating la..i ended lesson and i walked to the toilet and i cried =( so poor thing. hate it when ppl raise their voice at me...even when bf raises his voice (he claims he didnt) at me, i also cry...hah...i found my weak point...okay enough of emotional stress....

was out with bf for dinner at aston and movie at cathay ydae. so qiao the one who was queuing in front of me was hengky...haha! and it has been so long since we watched movie and so long since we were out till late...the blue mansion wasnt too bad...at least it made me laugh..hah...home at 1am...edited one of the grp essay till 3am and went to bed. and guess what? i still woke up at 9am =/ my biological clock is working very well.

and sch work is drowninggggg me.........

got back stats paper. i knew i sure do badly. but IM STILL SAD ABOUT IT! =(

nvm. all the more im motivated to pull my grades and get over with this sem!

was blog hopping...realised i haven been catching up with my friends for ages =(( i have not been talking to ah ryl, sian n mok for like dunno how long. booo =(( and i was chatting with ah na online yesterday and that was like after how long we didnt meet and talk despite studying in the same school and taking one same module.

sometimes i don't know what im doing. seriously.

and i dunno whats wrong with me. i think i dun feel as healthy as before =( maybe i have not been running for long. and i cant run now because i don't want to perspire which may probably worsen my little allergy on my stomach which is well on recovery. booo! im so problematic nowadays. and my period aint coming its getting on my nerve! RAHHH!

maybe im too stress which explains my little allergy and long overdue period which doesnt wan to come?

probably.

driving lesson that day wasnt as bad. but he scolded me! because my car rolled backwards =/ haha! i think i'll freak out when im driving when this man keeps shouting at me! it makes me hate driving =( which explains why i always dread having lessons. sometimes he just pushed my hand to make me steer to the right. sometimes he just keeps saying 'FASTER! U GOT TO DRIVE FASTER. SPEED UP SPEED UP! CHANGE UR GEAR NOW!' or he goes 'HURRY! GEAR 2 NOW, BACK TO UR LANE NOW, TURN LEFT INFRONT. FAST FAST!' and i end up panicking =/ BOO! and i always stress myself before lessons because im so scared my car will stall, i cant u-turn properly, i cant drive fast enough and blah blah. hai. but sometimes u tell ppl, they don't get why u are so scared for what. but i think different character ba. subjective.

that explains my high cortisol level.

and this sem is so xiong. tests every now and then. finished with one test and the next test comes. im forever studying. i feel so tired =( and looking at the number of essays due.....RAHHH....

that expplains an even higher cortisol level.

high cortisol level + even higher cortisol level = weak immune system = vulnerable to anything = little allergies = delayed period

HAHA! this is called the seehwee's theory of stress.

alright. back to my notes and my cup of milktea!

probably because i have not been blogging much these days, i don't know what to type in my entry!

okay, i know this entry is like super lagggyyyy but still i haven blog abt it!

backtrackkkk

birthday surprise from my friends =) although is like so long ago, i still rmb okay. they bought me 4slices of cake with one 'never say die' candle that kept me blowing and blowing and blowing non stop. haha!

then then then....I MET UP WITH JENNY AND ELIZA which i mention in my previous post!

the respectables! hahaha! we are all still the same =)) eliza still as blurr...jenny still as skinny as ever....hahaha....

okay. recess weeekkkkk alreadyyyy!!!! cant wait for midterms to be over then it will be E-LEARNING WEEK! wheeee!!!! then i'll only have to go sch twice that wk! cant wait cant wait =)))

okay. i only got 4 minutes to blog this because im taking a short break from studies.

have not been updating for a long longgggg time because im seriously busy this sem! test after test and more and more and more to come. i feel so sick studying already!!!!!! i feel as if im a robot now. and i have been neglecting poor boyfriend and i know i barely talked much on phone with him because im really tired. i only met boyfriend for 4hrs this week!! pro.

and i met JENNY and ELIZA that day! if i didnt have to go home to study, i could have spend more time with my 2 buddies. but then again, it was a good catching up session =) something wrong with blogger. i cant upload photos i dunno why.

times up! update again later. haha!

haven been blogging. didnt even realise there was some problem with my poor blog. hahaha! i randomly changed the skin but it seems like theres still some problem somewhere. sort it out when im free.

its week 3 of school! and i feel so not motivated =( i dunno how i can go on and on last sem reading my psychology text. COGNITIVE PSYCHOLOGY IS KILLING ME. overly comprehensive textbk is not good. and i have yet to touch biopsyc too!!! omg. im so dead. tests are coming!

oh yes, during biopsyc lecture, the lecturer brought human brains. and for the whole lecture, we were just examining and discussing about the different slices of the brain. abit gross thou =/ and he kept telling us the brain has a consistency of a tofu =/ interesting to see a brain, but for someone with no background in biology....im getting lost with all the nonsense terms.

didnt really like my timetable this sem. have to wake up early morning all the time =/

and did i say how much i detest driving?! but nvm, im doing well psycho-ing myself. I CAN do it.

and while in tutorial class today, i realise my primary school friend is in the same class too!
me: u are xue qi is it? yangzheng one right?
xue qi: ya...u are....class monitor?
me: HAHA! ya...

she cant rmb my name! hahaha! but at least she rmbed i was the class monitress. hahaha!

okay, i think i shld go slp soon. i need to wake up at 6.15am JUST TO GO FOR A 8AM LECTURE. GOODNIGHT!

I'VE BEEN FEELING SICK RECENTLY! =(

and i hate going for lectures when im feeling sick because i have short attention span. but luckily, first lectures are usually not impt so i can afford to drift off. boyfriend was sweet enough to appear at my doorstep to accompany me since i wasnt feeling well. thanks =)

spent my whole saturday sleeping, recuperating and watching tv at hm.

today was out with boyfriend and family. popeyes for lunch, hopped on singapore flyer and caught Up which obviously made boyfriend fell aslp =/ haha! okay, he wasnt the only one, cox i fell alsp for like 5mins too. hee. nth much spectacular abt spore flyer, perhaps it would look nicer at night?

SCH IS STARTING TML!!!!

i still do not have the 'im all ready for school' mood =/

i bet this sem will be tough. taking biopsychology which i dun really like and worse still, im taking stats 2 this sem =// studyyy hard studyyy hard studddyyy doubly hard!

hongkong trip was alright. lazy to upload photos here because they are all in facebook.

started driving lesson! and i already got this 'don't want to drive anymore' feeling =( i hate it when the car stalls...and i panic..and panic even more when theres car behind me =( SIGH. boyfriend! u shall be my driver la. forget abt my driving license. sniff.

and i can barely lift my arms up because they are aching soooo badlllyyyy!!!! 2hrs of cycling with boyfriend yesterday + 1 hr of badminton with boyfriend today + 1.5hrs of hands on steering wheel today = can't lift my arms high up.

i keep having this nausea feeling. it feels so uncomfortable! yucks. GO AWAY U IRRITATING NAUSEA. poof!

realised i haven been blogging for ages!!!!

i have ended my work last friday! but i'll still continue to work every monday night =))good money. haha! im going to miss drinking teh peng, yuan yang and milo dinosaur with my colleagues =(

ajisen ramen for dinner last friday =) im so craving for ramen these days. just feel like drinking soup. -slurped =p

i realised im such a lousy girlfriend at times. i got angry with boyfriend just because he didnt call or msg me when he was in orientation camp =x maybe im too used to getting calls and msges frm him it became a habit. im such a loser =/ booo!

went to watch ndp preview with boyfriend on saturday. impromtu activity because bf's dad's colleague's husband happen to have 2 tickets. so we just went ahead to watch since we have nth better to do. AND I SAW JENNY TAN THERE! HOHOHHO! smalllll worldddd!!! nice preview this time round. better than the one i watched 2 yrs back. hee.

sunday was spent massive exercising!!! met na and ryl at ryl's hse. gym-ed followed by swimming!!! and 3hrs just went back like that. and ryl's mummy cooked dinner for us. hee. =))good catching up as well and more photos to be added to my laptop! send me the photos soon ryl!

monday was spent playing badminton with bf in the afternoon, followed by lunch, travelled to ICA building to get my passport, travelled to tampines to get oreo cheesecake for my sis's bdae since bakerzin having 50% off, rushed home for dinner, travelled to workplace to work at night. OMG! seriously tired cox bf and i were rushing from places to places. and he was the innocent one who had to pei me rush everywhere. hahaha!

went clarke quay to find mok for subway lunch and to pass her giraffe! =)nice catching up! off to meet boyfriend at cathay. pei-ed boyfriend for lunch, watched harry potter, walked around and i headed home while bf off to meet his smu friends.

flying off to hongkong tmllllll!!!!! AND I GOT OUTBIDDED FOR TRAUMA PSYCHOLOGY!!! REALLY A TRAUMA FOR ME =((( i want to take trauma psyc!! now have to take biopsychology le! RAHHHHH. nvm. im all motivated! the harder the modules are, the more im motivated!!!!! but before that, let me enjoy my holiday first. hee!!!

AN ACCOMPLISHED DAY!

called my driving instructor in the morning at 9am and he told me to go ubi driving centre NOW because weekends are usually crowded. so i hurriedly ate my breakfast, bathed and off i went out! reached ubi at 11am, applied for my pdl and booked my driving test date. by the time boyfriend came to find me i was almost done with all my application and booking. but still, appreciate ur effort for coming all the way to ubi just to pei me =))

got a call from my sis halfway, telling me to renew my passport cox it has expired! so boyfriend accompanied me to ICA. renewed my passport and off we walked to find a coffee shop which boyfriend claimed that they sells good minced meat noodle. BUT THE QUEUE WAS SUPER LONG we settled for chicken chop instead =/ shared a plate of chicken chop and off we trained to town!

and that starts our ending walking. from wisma to taka to far east to tangs. AND I BOUGHT NTH! how can that be?! seems like i just cant find anything i like =( oh yes, i did buy something! i bought macarons cox its selling at 90cents each so shared 4 with boyfriend. haha! afterwhich, boyfriend accompanied me to tampines to meet ryl and off he went for his dinner with his family. finally met up with RYL! =))) initially i was not intending to exercise with them because i did not bring my shoes and clothes. ended up, ryl lent me her fbt shorts and t shirt, her new blue rubber band, her new socks, her mum's new running shoe! OMG! felt so bu hao yi si =( luckily there wasnt anyone in the gym. so we exercised and did all sorts of things to tone this and that. haha! super funny la, we laid 3 mats on the floor and started doing sit ups and stuff when right opposite us, theres a birthday party ongoing =/ so i assumed everyone saw us =/ went up her hse, waited for ah na to bathe first while ryl's mum heat up tapioca cake for us =) so nice of her mummy! ate a slice each except ah na who ate 2 =p hahaha! usual her. eat alot still so skinny. jealous! even ryl's mum said the same. ahahha! wanted ajisen for dinnerrr!! but by the time we reached tampines mall, it was already 10pm! everyone was starving by then. settled for pastamania in the end. had my favourite miso mushroom pasta =) talked for awhile and we all headed home.

TIRING DAY! did sooo many things todayyy!!!

i ate happy meal that day and i got a toy giraffe! so excited to pass it to mok! =)

boyfriend came all the way to yew tee from smu just to train down to lavender with me because i requested that he pick me up from my workplace =p im such a big bully! haha! so he trained like one big round =p and sorrrrryyyy boyfriend because i made u wait 3 hrs for me =/ but thats partially because u ended ur stuff early =p hope my chocolate and little note made u better which i think it did.

finally reached lavender and we went in search of mok's house. haha! took us ages before we found her block and guess what?!! THE GIRAFFE'S LEGS COULD NOT FIT INTO THE LETTER BOX =(( left in disappointment. =(((

walked to golden mile tower in search of yummy thai food. sweet bf suggested going there because he knew i was craving for tom yum soup =)


we shared this yummy pineapple rice!!

authentic clear thai tom soup to satisfy my craving =D -loves

no we didnt drink this. this is just a random shot.

half spring chicken. yummmyyy! fried but it doesnt feel oily. very crispy.

kang kong with belachan. i like this tooooo!

coupled with 2 glasses of fruit juice, this sums up our dinnerrrr!!!

i love today's dinnnerr because i love all the food we had =D thumbs up =)

and off we took a bus home. sat at the rooftop garden as usual before he walked me up to my house =)

love you dear! <3

just when i said im not going to eat sweet stuff, i ate it the very next morning =/ sometimes life becomes a routine. mundane and nth for me to look forward to =( i need a sweet dose to make me happy. im thinking of taking one day off from work. should i? but even if i take a day off from work, what should i do? no plans. don't mind working actually. because i have nice colleagues and nice boss. but sometimes i think im leading an aimless life. its home after work, or going out after work. return home, bathe n i sleep and the cycle repeats. is that how im spending my 3 mths of holiday? but its abit too late to say now. BECAUSE SCHOOL IS STARTING SOON! =/

craving for my tom yum soup!!!! even though i had tom yum seafood ban mian yesterday, thats still not satisfying! =( i hope my mummy cooks it today.

yesterday was sushi ling's last day at work. so saddening! but nvm, can still keep in contact =)) TAKE CARE!!!! =D

filling dinner yesterday! im not going to eat sweet stuff for 1 week! too much of desert these days =/

yesterday's dinner was at holiday inn hotel. buffet dinner filled with oysters, scallops, mussels, crabs, big prawns, turkey, salmon, spag, sushi, sashimi, gratin, cakes, chocolate fondue,tarts and too many to name. OH YES! i ate brie cheese too! and st paulin cheese, garlic and herb cheese, roulette cheese, mimolette cheese and others that i cant rmb. some tasted rubbery and weird, some tasted good. heh. bf was saying we so high class, we know how to eat cheese. haha! cox apparently no one appreciated the cheese =/

and it was so funny yesterday. i was sitting on the salon chair looking at bf's dad cut his hair. then his dad went to wash his hair so i sat on the salon chair talking to his mum. then out of a sudden, this lady came and turn my chair towards the mirror and i thought she wanted to take something so i stood up. and she went 'nonono, u sit down, gordon ask me to make ur hair'. and i was stunned. hah! and she started making my hair =/ and his dad came and helped me touched up and trimmed my hair. hah! funny uncle =)

dinnered till 10plus and home!

been so busy at work recently =( OT-ed twice this week! but nvm, more money earned.

finally slept till 10am this morning! it has been such a long time since i slept past 7am =(

went for my final theory test ydae morning and i passed! yay! headed to bf's house next, lunched, watched abit of gossip girls and headed to tampines 1. walked around but i didnt manage to buy anything =( went to find ah na and i got a free green tea ice cream drink from her! hah! good to work in f & b...hahha!! i get free icecream n drink from her =)) and i met kristin tan and her bf, eliza teo and her bf. haha! headed to joel's house next. and i played camping with one of his niece. so funny la. im suppose to buy grapes, durian etc for her. then set up fire and cook it or smth. imaginary game. hah! reminded me of the days when i was younger. always play such things with my sis and cousin. and joel's sis baked a cake! maybe i should learn too!

me: mummy! joel's sis baked a cake ydae! so pro la
mummy: wah, u go and learn too la
me: i dun mind leh. but everytime i bake anything, u end up doing everything else for me. i learn nth in the end.
mummy: HAHa

see! everytime i wan to make something and while i stirring the mixture, my mum will go 'nonono, must do it this way' then she stir everything for me =/
boooooo!

anyway, stayed till 11plus pm at joel's hse before we left. super tired. was falling aslp by then. slept in the car and home at 12am.

going out again later!! bf's grandfather's bdae! shall go lunch n bathe !

ARTS CAMP PHOTOS!





innocent freshies during SP night

another victim.

siew mai!

my legs disappeared!

female counsellors + ogl!



HOORAY TO SIEW MAI =))