i dunwan to study already =(( no mood.
studied in the morning + tried to do stats report in the afternoon + went out to meet boyfriend in the evening+ project meeting online at night= TODAY
because it is 'happy 19th month' today, i decided to be a good gf. travelled ALL THE WAY to YEWTEE to find boyfriend after his work =) ended up at yishun thinking what to eat. settled with 8 pieces of sushi and one stick of mushroom. headed next to my house's roof garden to have our dinner =) simple yet sweet =))
but im abit hungry now =( hahah!
i cant wait for the sem to end. exams to end. I WANT HOLIDAYS TO COME! QUICK!
someone teach me how to write statistic report!!!!! ahhhhh!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
im so slpyyy...mummy woke me up at 8.30am to eat wanton mee =S SLEEEEEPPPYYYY.....and since i woke up...i didnt wan to go back to slp especially when i just eaten such a heavy breakfast. so here i am struggling to keep myself awake. stayed up last night downloading spss and i realised i cant run it this morning!! its either i don't know how to run it or simply cant run it. so had to download another time AGAIN.
went boyfriend's hse in the morning yesterday. took me ONE HOUR to wake him up. and i can smell all the alcohol when he talks! TELL U DON'T DRINK SO MUCH ALREADY!!! RAHHHH! anyway, wanted to run home frm his house but by the time he gets himself out of bed, already 11.45 already. sun was out by then. so ended up, we just went to the gym. then went up to his house to rest. and i tried to ton my arms with a 1kg weight. ahah! i did 45 times for each side! yea, 45 times after boyfriend kept asking me to continue. NOW MY ARMS ARE ACHING!! and i dug out boyfriend's violin from his cupboard and kept pestering him to play. BUT TO NO AVAIL despite me using desperate extreme measures. HORRIBLE! although he suggested playing piano instead...BUT I ONLY WANT HIM TO PLAY VIOLIN! whats so difficult with that=((( waited for him to bathe and he came over my hse. cooked maggi mee for him to eat. went to bathe and we headed to cityhall. walked n walked n walked from cityhall to suntec just to buy yogurt and walked back to raffles city. met up with mok n sian at soup spoon for dinner. boyfriend joined us but he promised not to talk. hahahah! poor boy!=( i know bf making effort to get to know my friends but sometimes, it needs to work both way. sorry boyfriend! i guess it was awkward for both sides =( but im not blaming any sides. no worries. like what ah mok says, just leave it ba.
and i saw nice dresses when i was walking with ah na! we both tried the dress and we think it looks good. but no more stock le =( left last piece...so both of didnt buy.
i dreamt bf's ex came to find him and he went away with his ex =((( we must have talked too much about his ex in the afternoon =/
MUSCLE ACHING everywhere! calfs, stomach, arms!
went boyfriend's hse in the morning yesterday. took me ONE HOUR to wake him up. and i can smell all the alcohol when he talks! TELL U DON'T DRINK SO MUCH ALREADY!!! RAHHHH! anyway, wanted to run home frm his house but by the time he gets himself out of bed, already 11.45 already. sun was out by then. so ended up, we just went to the gym. then went up to his house to rest. and i tried to ton my arms with a 1kg weight. ahah! i did 45 times for each side! yea, 45 times after boyfriend kept asking me to continue. NOW MY ARMS ARE ACHING!! and i dug out boyfriend's violin from his cupboard and kept pestering him to play. BUT TO NO AVAIL despite me using desperate extreme measures. HORRIBLE! although he suggested playing piano instead...BUT I ONLY WANT HIM TO PLAY VIOLIN! whats so difficult with that=((( waited for him to bathe and he came over my hse. cooked maggi mee for him to eat. went to bathe and we headed to cityhall. walked n walked n walked from cityhall to suntec just to buy yogurt and walked back to raffles city. met up with mok n sian at soup spoon for dinner. boyfriend joined us but he promised not to talk. hahahah! poor boy!=( i know bf making effort to get to know my friends but sometimes, it needs to work both way. sorry boyfriend! i guess it was awkward for both sides =( but im not blaming any sides. no worries. like what ah mok says, just leave it ba.
and i saw nice dresses when i was walking with ah na! we both tried the dress and we think it looks good. but no more stock le =( left last piece...so both of didnt buy.
i dreamt bf's ex came to find him and he went away with his ex =((( we must have talked too much about his ex in the afternoon =/
MUSCLE ACHING everywhere! calfs, stomach, arms!
Friday, March 27, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
i skipped physics lecture yesterday! although i did not want to, but i had no choice =( had a bad cramp and i pulled through psych lecture with much effort and decided, i should just go home. the 1 and half hour journey home was torturous given the excruciating pain. just felt like sitting down on the pathway and not budge. hopped on 95 to bv station. sat at the seats while waiting for train and i stood my way from bv to outram. and my legs were shivering away and those aunties just got to push me. ANGRY. and the constant feeling of wanting to vomit made me felt so sick. finally alighted and gosh, i was walking at such a tortoise speed i felt the distance from outram(ewl) to outram(nel) was donkey miles apart. how i wish someone could just pick me up and fly me home. HAH! too much of vitual world. anyway, knew i wouldnt have seats if i boarded at outram. so i trained to harbourfront. just slept through my way but the pain refused to subside. dragged myself to interchange to take 83 and FINALLY GOT HOME. and it was when i reached home that i vomitted. and i cried =( felt i was so poor thing to endure through lecture and endure through the ardous journey home and endure through the horrible feeling of vomitting. yea, and i was all alone whenever this kind of thing happen. I THINK IM SUCH A STRONG GIRL! *pat on my back*
i think i should see a doctor. who on earth has such bad cramps that they vomit? and this isnt the first time already. na was telling me to see a doctor, otherwise i get conditioned to it. HAH. which i felt so true.
stimulus - cramps
unconditioned stimulus - vomitting
conditioned stimulus - vomit when i have cramps
alright. back to studying!
i think i should see a doctor. who on earth has such bad cramps that they vomit? and this isnt the first time already. na was telling me to see a doctor, otherwise i get conditioned to it. HAH. which i felt so true.
stimulus - cramps
unconditioned stimulus - vomitting
conditioned stimulus - vomit when i have cramps
alright. back to studying!
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
who says pineapple tarts should only be eaten during chinese new year?!
hah! cox i made pineapple tarts with my mum today! okay, actually i only helped to put the pineapple filling. not much of a help =/ hah!
notice the smiley faces at the bottom? hahahaha! thats my family! 5 smiley faces! hah! i feel like a kid playing with dough. and my mum made one smiley face with sausage lip and we kept laughing about it.
and we ran out of pineapple filling so we decide to substitute with chocolate chips. BUT THE CHOCOLATE CHIPS DIDNT MELT! oh well..it still taste alright...like nutella spread on cookie...hahah!
hah! cox i made pineapple tarts with my mum today! okay, actually i only helped to put the pineapple filling. not much of a help =/ hah!
notice the smiley faces at the bottom? hahahaha! thats my family! 5 smiley faces! hah! i feel like a kid playing with dough. and my mum made one smiley face with sausage lip and we kept laughing about it.
and we ran out of pineapple filling so we decide to substitute with chocolate chips. BUT THE CHOCOLATE CHIPS DIDNT MELT! oh well..it still taste alright...like nutella spread on cookie...hahah!
Sunday, March 15, 2009
IM SERIOUSLY NOT IN ANY MOOD TO STUDY =((( and that bothers me a WHOLE LOT! im walking everywhere around the house just so i wouldnt have to sit down and read my physics book. sigh. feeling so unaccomplished other than completing my computing tut and going through one chpt of it in the morning. GIVE ME THE MOTIVATION!
met fairies ( except ryl =( ) at ah chew dessert. without spending 2 to 3 hrs sitting at the table, u can't expect us to leave the place. so we each ordered our dessert but wasnt satisfied, so we shared another 2 bowls. hee. ah mok kind of reminded me of my jc days when i tried all means to control diet. haha! not that i don't do that now, but to a lesser extent i suppose. hah! i guess its just a phase that we go through. okay, i know it doesnt apply to all. but when u feel you cant control anything at all, diet is the only way u can! hah! pardon my nonsense but is true. kind of. when u start looking and observing people around you, u envy those skinnier than u and u think 'hey, it wouldnt hurt to lose a few more kgs just to be the ideal self' and dieting kicks in and yes, especially true when a single comment is present as well. i think it is especially true for me because so long as anyone comment anything about my appearance, i see the need to do something about it. and it dawned on me 'hey, is that called low self esteem? that i do not believe in myself? that i consistently seek approval from others to reassure myself?' hmm. actually i think i do have low self esteem. especially so during jc. thats a long story. when u kind of have a serious pimple outbreak in jc, kind of put on a few kgs, kind of just simply flunked ur exams all the time and of course, coupled with critical comments from others, u just feel disgusted about yourself. yea. i do get disgusted by myself. in fact, i haven been looking at myself in the mirror during those days and i think it totalled to 2 yrs. and even if i did, i took off my specs since my myopia kind of blurred everything and even if i looked in the mirror to tidy my hair, i focus only on my hair and not my face or i only look at the reflection from the window panes. yea, thats how saddening it was. i will never forget what my aunty said to me because it hurt me alot. it may just be a passing comment, but if u said it during a sensitive period, thats damaging. (its funny why im talking about the past and im tearing now). and now that my aunty do comment abt my sis at times, i feel like strangling them because i noe exactly how it feels. but yea, not only aunty, friends around you do comment too. and u just try laughing it away when u know deep down, u just feel like hiding somewhere. i hate meeting people especially long lost friends during that time because im avoiding further comments. but oh well, really glad i made great friends like the FAIRIES during those days. indirectly, they gave me the support i needed and of course, i felt myself when im with them. and yes, its funny why i agreed to meet boyfriend for the first time after not meeting at all since graduation from sec sch. hah. call it fate then or maybe he makes me feel comfortable. he allows my confidence to grow back. hah. okay, now i make him sound so noble.
oh well. i think for the past 19++ years, there were only 2 incidences that got me so upset. thats one i mentioned. and another was alevel results. and thinking about that. i think i found my motivation to study!!!!!
okay, im sharing too much abt my personal life. stop here!
met fairies ( except ryl =( ) at ah chew dessert. without spending 2 to 3 hrs sitting at the table, u can't expect us to leave the place. so we each ordered our dessert but wasnt satisfied, so we shared another 2 bowls. hee. ah mok kind of reminded me of my jc days when i tried all means to control diet. haha! not that i don't do that now, but to a lesser extent i suppose. hah! i guess its just a phase that we go through. okay, i know it doesnt apply to all. but when u feel you cant control anything at all, diet is the only way u can! hah! pardon my nonsense but is true. kind of. when u start looking and observing people around you, u envy those skinnier than u and u think 'hey, it wouldnt hurt to lose a few more kgs just to be the ideal self' and dieting kicks in and yes, especially true when a single comment is present as well. i think it is especially true for me because so long as anyone comment anything about my appearance, i see the need to do something about it. and it dawned on me 'hey, is that called low self esteem? that i do not believe in myself? that i consistently seek approval from others to reassure myself?' hmm. actually i think i do have low self esteem. especially so during jc. thats a long story. when u kind of have a serious pimple outbreak in jc, kind of put on a few kgs, kind of just simply flunked ur exams all the time and of course, coupled with critical comments from others, u just feel disgusted about yourself. yea. i do get disgusted by myself. in fact, i haven been looking at myself in the mirror during those days and i think it totalled to 2 yrs. and even if i did, i took off my specs since my myopia kind of blurred everything and even if i looked in the mirror to tidy my hair, i focus only on my hair and not my face or i only look at the reflection from the window panes. yea, thats how saddening it was. i will never forget what my aunty said to me because it hurt me alot. it may just be a passing comment, but if u said it during a sensitive period, thats damaging. (its funny why im talking about the past and im tearing now). and now that my aunty do comment abt my sis at times, i feel like strangling them because i noe exactly how it feels. but yea, not only aunty, friends around you do comment too. and u just try laughing it away when u know deep down, u just feel like hiding somewhere. i hate meeting people especially long lost friends during that time because im avoiding further comments. but oh well, really glad i made great friends like the FAIRIES during those days. indirectly, they gave me the support i needed and of course, i felt myself when im with them. and yes, its funny why i agreed to meet boyfriend for the first time after not meeting at all since graduation from sec sch. hah. call it fate then or maybe he makes me feel comfortable. he allows my confidence to grow back. hah. okay, now i make him sound so noble.
oh well. i think for the past 19++ years, there were only 2 incidences that got me so upset. thats one i mentioned. and another was alevel results. and thinking about that. i think i found my motivation to study!!!!!
okay, im sharing too much abt my personal life. stop here!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
bulimia presentation is finally over! 1 down!
now im left with
- book review for physics book 2000 words
- statistic report for psychology
- social psychology project
- social psychology individual assignment
- web design for computing
okay, i hope all these will end soon!
and i have been eating honeydew for the past don't know how many days. i think my mum bought 8 honeydews. so as we had our slices of honeydew, mummy and daddy would start comparing which honeydew is the sweetest. so far, they said day 1 honeydew is the sweetest, day 2 isnt as sweet compared to day 1, day 3 was better than day 2 and blah blah blah, i kind of forgot what they had said anyway. hah! nvm. random.
was walking along the walkway when i bump into allena! hahaha! and so i got a ride to yio chu kang =D hahaha!
blog later! go eat honeydew!
now im left with
- book review for physics book 2000 words
- statistic report for psychology
- social psychology project
- social psychology individual assignment
- web design for computing
okay, i hope all these will end soon!
and i have been eating honeydew for the past don't know how many days. i think my mum bought 8 honeydews. so as we had our slices of honeydew, mummy and daddy would start comparing which honeydew is the sweetest. so far, they said day 1 honeydew is the sweetest, day 2 isnt as sweet compared to day 1, day 3 was better than day 2 and blah blah blah, i kind of forgot what they had said anyway. hah! nvm. random.
was walking along the walkway when i bump into allena! hahaha! and so i got a ride to yio chu kang =D hahaha!
blog later! go eat honeydew!
Sunday, March 08, 2009
I LOVE MY WEEKENDS!!! =D
sat
out early in the morning at 10 plus am. headed to boyfriend's place. initial plan was to go for a run, but it rained in the morning =/ so i decided not to run since the ground will be wet anyway. boyfriend helped me convert youtube video to wmv file so i could upload it to my webpage. ate something for lunch, watched abit of show and out we went to town. walked for hours in town and finally settled in manhattann for dinner. my treat! hah! i counted.i think for the past 18mths, i only paid for the bill 6 times or so. so i think its time i treat boyfriend to dinner =) yami yogurt for dessert and boyfriend came over to my place. great help for my webpage assignment! =D oh! and theres something exciting going on for my computing tutorial! we will be having virtual classes. sounds cool...but i feel that is not really practical. i rather have lessons as in REAL lessons. anyway, i was creating my avatar for secondlife. boyfriend stayed till 12am at my house having fun with dressing n changing the features of the character. and it has a name! coconut hunniton! haahha! don't ask me why hunniton. i don't really have much choices. i was thinking of coconut hazelnut. HAH! the other available choices were none the better so i just settled for it.
sun
started doing my presentation slides on bulimia and watching my sun wu kong show. went out in the late afternoon with boyfriend and his family to ikea. had hotdog bun and ice cream. headed to courts to see aircon for boyfriend's room and off we went for dinner. somewhere near tanah merah country club. hah! im bad with directions. just know is a place where the airplanes fly over our head. where we sit at the sandy beach. where we see the sunset.
bf's dad: is nic romantic?
me: NO!like concrete block.
bf's dad: HAHa!
bf's mum: huh? what?
bf's dad: like a block
bf's mum: HAHA!
bf: inherit from u one what
bf's dad: no! u can ask ur mum
bf's dad: nvm, when i free i will teach him
me: OKAY =D
haha! just thought the convo was funny =)
sat
out early in the morning at 10 plus am. headed to boyfriend's place. initial plan was to go for a run, but it rained in the morning =/ so i decided not to run since the ground will be wet anyway. boyfriend helped me convert youtube video to wmv file so i could upload it to my webpage. ate something for lunch, watched abit of show and out we went to town. walked for hours in town and finally settled in manhattann for dinner. my treat! hah! i counted.i think for the past 18mths, i only paid for the bill 6 times or so. so i think its time i treat boyfriend to dinner =) yami yogurt for dessert and boyfriend came over to my place. great help for my webpage assignment! =D oh! and theres something exciting going on for my computing tutorial! we will be having virtual classes. sounds cool...but i feel that is not really practical. i rather have lessons as in REAL lessons. anyway, i was creating my avatar for secondlife. boyfriend stayed till 12am at my house having fun with dressing n changing the features of the character. and it has a name! coconut hunniton! haahha! don't ask me why hunniton. i don't really have much choices. i was thinking of coconut hazelnut. HAH! the other available choices were none the better so i just settled for it.
sun
started doing my presentation slides on bulimia and watching my sun wu kong show. went out in the late afternoon with boyfriend and his family to ikea. had hotdog bun and ice cream. headed to courts to see aircon for boyfriend's room and off we went for dinner. somewhere near tanah merah country club. hah! im bad with directions. just know is a place where the airplanes fly over our head. where we sit at the sandy beach. where we see the sunset.
bf's dad: is nic romantic?
me: NO!like concrete block.
bf's dad: HAHa!
bf's mum: huh? what?
bf's dad: like a block
bf's mum: HAHA!
bf: inherit from u one what
bf's dad: no! u can ask ur mum
bf's dad: nvm, when i free i will teach him
me: OKAY =D
haha! just thought the convo was funny =)
Saturday, March 07, 2009
end of mid term! =DDDDD
like finally. hah! although i only had 2 papers and shouldnt be complaining how tired i am from studying but STILL...I AM TIRED FROM STUDYING N I DESERVE A BREAK! =)))
and i think i can start making my own template for my blog =) so cool! okay..i will do it when im free =)
its a perfect saturday and im up at 7.50am when i slept at 2am last night! its funny i never seem to enjoy the moments lying on bed and slping just awhile longer,weird? yea i think its weird... and no matter what time i turn in the night before, i always find myself waking up around the same time...like 8am or 8.30am...my biological clock is well tuned. hah!
met boyfriend yesterday after sch. but i hopped on the wrong train at clementi because boyfriend was in the train after mine. so i alighted at dover and boyfriend msged and say he was reaching dover. so i hopped on the train that just arrived but i couldnt find him in the train. so i alighted again at bv statn only to find out that he was in that train!!! RAH! so angry! keep alighting and boarding! got me so $#$^%&*&(! nvm...after all the trouble, we just met at bugis straight! steamboat for dinnerr after much consideration!!!! i met shiru and her bf! haha! so qiao! they came to eat at the same place too! =)) after our full dinner, we went walking around to find present for boyfriend's friend and hm at 10.30pm =)
like finally. hah! although i only had 2 papers and shouldnt be complaining how tired i am from studying but STILL...I AM TIRED FROM STUDYING N I DESERVE A BREAK! =)))
and i think i can start making my own template for my blog =) so cool! okay..i will do it when im free =)
its a perfect saturday and im up at 7.50am when i slept at 2am last night! its funny i never seem to enjoy the moments lying on bed and slping just awhile longer,weird? yea i think its weird... and no matter what time i turn in the night before, i always find myself waking up around the same time...like 8am or 8.30am...my biological clock is well tuned. hah!
met boyfriend yesterday after sch. but i hopped on the wrong train at clementi because boyfriend was in the train after mine. so i alighted at dover and boyfriend msged and say he was reaching dover. so i hopped on the train that just arrived but i couldnt find him in the train. so i alighted again at bv statn only to find out that he was in that train!!! RAH! so angry! keep alighting and boarding! got me so $#$^%&*&(! nvm...after all the trouble, we just met at bugis straight! steamboat for dinnerr after much consideration!!!! i met shiru and her bf! haha! so qiao! they came to eat at the same place too! =)) after our full dinner, we went walking around to find present for boyfriend's friend and hm at 10.30pm =)
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