ahh...late for chem practical todae...hahax...got off my dad's car...sign in at e security post and saw yingxian as well...wasnt tat panic at first...but she so kan chiong...ran her way to e chem lab so i no choice...ran wif her as well...hahax...chem practical todae was quite alright...did titration...yay! i got e ans ritex...hmm..*grinx* but e QA...hmm....couldnt smell sulphur dioxide thou...hahax...but anywae...everythin ended at 10.15am or so...left e sch wif tx they all...and went home alone....peaceful journey home...hmm...

got home...e sky turned dark...started rainin....but it felt good...had lunch....slept awhile...and started my hw...i cant find e drive to study le...argh!!!! study study study......keep studyin for e mock prelim...then e drive to study lost le...e case of e missin drive to study....hmm....i'll find it back sumhow...

i miss you.....=x

wow...finally had proper lessons le...erm...couldnt realli concentrate...cos i kept wantin to fall asleep...dunnoe y..after mock prelim...i keep wantin to slp...i think i can slp now also le...hmm...sianx...tomolo still got chem practical...but lucky is practical...not too bad...anywae....e day seemed extremely longgggggggg.....quite tirin...cos 12.45pm lesson ended.....i had to chiong my lit essay..cos haf to hand up by todae...then 1.20pm had chi lesson...till 1.50...then 2pm phy ssp....till 3pm...haven had my lunch!!! finally 4plus...went lunchin wif eliza n oct qinqi...then went for sj....hahax...i muxt compliment eliza....cos she was e first person who saw e difference in me...hahax...not even him...sad case sia...sigh....but well nvm...eliza makes a good observer...hahax...stayed wif e sj till 6plus...then daddi cum to fetch me home...hmm....and yea...back home...

i'm feelin abit erm...furnie huh...undescribable(did i spell wrongly???) feelin....just feel weird...dunnoe wads wrong....haix....

okie...had career seminar todae...hmm...only thing tat fascinates me was e VJ tok and maybe e nursin tok ba...but e nursin tok aint tat helpful...anywae...let's make this clear...tat i not goin to be nurse kae...im goin to be a doctor...hmm....far reachin goal...but nvm...=) went for e raffles design institute tok...which obviously didnt interest me....hahax....but val...jean...yl...got pretty excited over it i guess...they tok to e guy...and i was shocked at e fee...50K for 3 years...hmm....and vosh started calculatin how much she must save le...hahax...e tok ended earlier as expected....abt 4pm liddat...then i went home le...had a headache....argh!!! tat panadol aint powerful enuff...awhile okie then awhile not....hmm....

yay!!! end of mock prelim le...is time for revelry!!! hahax....havoc time!!! me...tx...and belinda went to st hse...wasnt exactly tat havoc but we had quite a lot of fun ba...watched sum vcds...e pacifier...which i thought shane was totally cool...hmm...i think guys appear most charmin when they command ppl...hmm....next time becum commando kae??? after pacifier...watched saw...erm...tat was a m18 show...hahax...pretty ironic...not even qualify for nc16 then i watch m18...but it wasnt tat gross either...just certain parts when e person dug out e intestine and stuff...and e man who saw off his ankle...i would had freak out if they realli show how he saw his ankle and how it dropped off...hahax...but they didnt...just sum blood splurtin out...so it aint tat bad afterall....oh ya...we had pizza as well...tx called em and got e pizza delivered to st hse...then played mahjiong...hehex...surprised tat i play huh? but i am pretty lousy at it... then we tok n tok n tok....played sum furnie hand game...and erm...6plus le....so we left....borrowed JJ cd frm st....i begining to be mad over him....but my sista sae he looked girly....DUH...but nvm...we are suppose to support e local singer....=x

*yawn* sleepy...finally weekend le...cant wait for mock prelim to be over...but then again...e end of mock prelim will simply means e start of real PRELIMs...haixx...aiyah...i also dunnoe wad to sae le...got things then i blog again...take care ppl!

okie..here i am...tellin u guys wad terrible daeS i had...ever since e chem test on last wed...i think i went into a state of depression...haixx...e moment i stepped out of e chem lab after my test...i jus broke down...cos i studied until so hard yet i made bloody toopit mistake which could probably caused me to flunk my test...practically peeved at myself....i guess i scare everyone...hehehex...paiseh ppl...and yea...ought to thx those we tried to cheer me up...and val who tried to run after me...thx ppl!

last sundae stayed at home e whole dae...totally stressed up...i think i am tryin to study too many sub tat it backfired...cos ended up wif severe headache...then i guess...my mood starts to swing...oopsx...

then recently got even worse i guess...e klass starts to chiong their studies le..and it makes matter worse for me cos i start feelin pressurised...(except for e guys in klass who are currently still slackin) everythin just pissed me off and i didnt realli want to tok either....and when was e last time i truely luff my heads off??!!! vancillating mood like mary turner liddat...awhile okie..then awhile just wan to shut myself awae from everythin else...=x i'm vexed over everythin...over studies...and especially him...hey...didnt mean to get angry wif u...but anywae...everytime i angry wif u..turn out u angry wif me...cox u think i'm unreasonable...*sniff* i'm just feelin....ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dunoe wad to do...ppl sae by cryin ur heart out...u will feel better...but sumhow or other...i think it doesnt work on me...*sniff*

todae was another eeeew dae...i knew he was still angry wif me...i'm tryin hard not to think abt it...lessons went on as usual...but caught a flu bug this mornin...was totally shiverin awae...but hu cares anywae...went for chem test at e lab todae....e toopit lab assit. got big problem...cox we got no periodic table so miss yam sae use chem text de...then this lab assit. gave me a copy of e table n took my chem text away..left it sumwhere in e lab....i finished e test but i forgot abt my textbk..so i left....was packin up my stuff then realised couldnt find my chem text...so went back n asked e lab assit. when i couldnt find it in e lab...and her bloody reply was...i left it there...if is there is there...if is not..then it isnt...hey! u took my textbk awae and u tell me if is there is there...if it isnt it isnt...wad e hell...got pissed off by her toopit attitude so i left....but anywae...i found back my bk in e end...

walked to e interchange wif audrey after sch...boarded e bus...was munchin on my chips....then this guy kept starin at me...i thought he was goin to ask me to stop eatin my chips on bus cos it aint allowed...but thx goodness he didnt...sumhow or other...he came to me and sat beside me...and he went HELLO...so i said HELLO too...'u looked sad so i thought i could tok to u' was his words....i was like...erm..k fine...and he started askin me where i live and wad cca i frm and my age etc...he introduced himself n reluctanly i shook his hand...he told me he's frm e navy....and he continues ratterin on and on...so i just 'ya ya ya' thruout e convo. and he asked 'u got bf alreadi not'....n i said 'ya' and tat moment...he finally shut up...and kept quiet...and i got a peacefully ride home...but he was nice thou...jux tat i didnt like e idea of tokin to a stranger....

haixx...to tat SOMEBODY who is currently angry:

do u noe angry can harm ur health....? it makes life bad for u and worse for me...y bother uself over things tat u urself even think is unreasonable...y waste ur energy gettin angry over sumthin? and does it makes u happie to see e other party cries simply cox u are angry at her...u are not hurtin urself but u are definitely hurtin me...guess i am at fault...and i apologise for tat...i may seemed unreasonable to u at timeS...but can u jus understand me for this once...?

hahax...finally here to update again le....cox last mon to fri was simply too hectic le...especially fri worx...early mornin at 6.45am...i went to sch...it was sj dae...and e parade was soooo long...did e slow march and i nearly lost my balance..hahax...=x tat dae will be e last time e year 4 wear their full u le...hmm...sad...but anywae...straight after e parade...snap sum photos and hurried off to change back to sch u...so ma fan...change here n there...and then...set off to snow city to watch e demo on e liquid nitrogen...i thought tat was simply cool...how e banana could actually hammer e nail into e wood...hmm...but furnie thou...travel all e way there...see see then go back again...hmm...then later in e afternoon went for e lost in chinatown...hahax....e 5 sotongs got into a grp..mainly...me...yunting..audrey...yi teng n jia ci...hahax...for e first two stations...we were rather serious...then later on...decide to anyhow walk le...hahax...ended up...dunnoe where we are...hahax....quite dumb sia...but anywae....we still found our way back n i slept my way back to sch le....then in e evenin got lit nitex...also quite sianx...cos e show watched b4 le...so was stonin away...and for e fact tat we had to sit at e gallery for 2 hour plus aint tat comfortable....hahax...and then finally...RELEASE le...went to meet him and went home...nearly got a shock in my entire life...hehehex...he was walkin me home when i suddenly spotted my mama at void deck....mama saw me...saw him...oops...but we didnt do anythin at tat time so it was erm...lucky....but mama ask for his name...where he stay...y he wif me...and blah blah blah...-duh- a question n ans session....hahax...

...i miss u....