Friday, May 30, 2008

IM SERIOUSLY BORED. boyfriend is slping like a pig now. and im left to entertain myself. HOW NICE...grrrr....
boo!! i slept at 2am and woke up at 7.30am today! nvm. thats random =x

anw, back track abit.

mon
went raffles place to find ryl and na for lunch. and this ah sian just got to PS us. grrrr...anw, we went barrista express to eat...wanted to go there because it is run by ex-imh patients...and since i've work there for so long, i shld go there and see. i saw the manager that i always see in IMH. but apparently, he doesnt seem to recognise me la. hahx!off to boyfriend's hse after that and home!

tue
went boyfriend's hse.

wed
sentosa with sis! but SIGH. fated that i can never tann myself. it just had to rain. but nonetheless, we did spend our time well taking 100 plus pics...hahhahax...good time spend with sister! yay! but i was super upset. the 6.45pm phobia.

thur
rotted at home!

when everything just doesnt seem right
when everything just make u lose sight of the bigger picture
like a jigsaw puzzle with a missing piece
i never felt completed
yet a hug from my mum
simply gave me the assurance
a small action it may be
but u never know just how much i needed
needed that one hug


I LOVE MY MUMMY! =) im starting to think that mummy is incredible. perhaps u will forever be that small little girl in ur mum's heart. hahx, i sound like some mummy's girl but im glad mummy stood by me everytime when i was down. really.

HOME AT LAST! =)

anw, i've already planned what to do next week. hahah!and its only 9am now! so early. bet boyfriend still dreaming away in his CANDYland.

Monday, May 26, 2008

6 most FATTENING ice cream!

1. Häagen-Dazs Chocolate Peanut Butter (360 calories, 24 grams of fat). Look out for nuts and chocolate: the most fattening flavors tend to be loaded with both.

2. Ben and Jerry's Chubby Hubby (330 calories, 20 grams of fat). Vanilla ice cream with fudge and peanut butter swirls, plus fudge covered peanut butter-filled pretzels. Any hubby who brings this into the house is asking for trouble.

3. Häagen-Dazs Butter Pecan (310 calories, 23 grams of fat). It's one of the most popular flavors, but the abundance of pecans also makes it one of the fattiest.

4. Sheer Bliss Pomegranate with chocolate chips (320 calories, 20 grams fat). Yes, pomegranate juice is good for you. But don't be fooled by the name: cream, milk and sugar are the first three ingredients in this decadent concoction.

5. Ben and Jerry's Vermonty Python (300 calories, 19 grams of fat). Coffee ice cream with chocolate cookie crumbs and fudge "cows." Moo.

6. Coldstone Cookie Batter (300 calories, 16 grams of fat). The cookie batter mix includes molasses and brown sugar as well as flour, adding calories along with richness. Note that the smallest "Like It" serving size is bigger than a half cup; it has 380 calories and 20 grams of fat. The "Love it" portion is a full cup.

hahax..happen to chance upon this. hmmm.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Friday, May 23, 2008

grrr....i think i like half screwed my interview...i came out of the interview rm feeling good abt everything...but when i started to recall here and there...i thought i gave such lousy ans and there's so much more i could have said...argh...how how how....

aye...now got to wait AGAIN...i really dread waiting for letters now...cant they just tell you straight whether u are in or not. i hate that kind of suspense...if u are in, you are in. if u are out, you are out. thats all. why bring us through that trauma? if u get in..then thats good..but if u don't...its really like bringing u up to heaven and dropping you down to hell...I HATE THAT! grrrrr....and when its waiting time again...i get paranoid again...sigh...hao bu rong yi pass my 1 week happily...and now...its that horrible waiting time again...sigh...

random complains.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

here again to blog. im seriously sitting in the office shaking my leg. HAHX! 2 hours more to go. farewell lunch treat by rebekah today. and i ate fried chicken, burger and mango ice! OMG!!!!!!!!! how fattening...grrr...

plan for tml! interview in the morning, and i'll drop by boyfriend's hse in the late afternoon or something. im so dying to see boyfriend! because i haven seen him for 3 days and when i don't see him, i'll start attituding him...hmmm..i just realised that thou...hahx...

anw, my desk is already cleared, cabinets emptied, things to handover are all in place. it's amazing how my short 4 months stay here could accumulate so many 'you de mei de dong xi' now im just left with going to the HR dept to hand over my pass...maybe one day i'll miss working here..who knows...hahax...

oh ya, i've agreed to help cecilia at red cross for some admin stuff because they have baskets and baskets of cheques to key in to the system due to the mynamar and china disasters. so i shall volunteer to help them
(ps: fairies/fairy godfather/fairies wannabe, anyone wants to go too?)

next week shall be a good week. i must start packing my days with activities already.

alright. i shall go fax my timesheet to recruit express now.
last day of work already! yay! =)

i shall cherish the last 8 hrs sitting in this office.

i cant wait for today to end. because im already thinking of what to do for the next week, next next week, next next next week =)

plan
- lunch with ryl, na and sian next week
- mahjong sessions with fairies
- swimming, gyming, tennis at ah ryl's place
- sun tanning with sister
- shopping with my dear jenny
- learn to drive
- learn to ice skate properly
- roller bladding with sister
- drop by yew mei green one day to find edward tan
- research and big big discussion with fairies on our big big plan
- spend more time with boyfriend!
- diet!!!

okay, thats all i can think of. thats enough to last me for some time i hope.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

in the midst of blog hopping, i came across this. which i thought was so so so true about me!

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. (conflicts? yea, just like how i didnt like xxx xx, but i still appear as if i get along with her)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. ( YES. i dunwan to be some dumb girl with no aim in life)

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear. ( yep, i think i am)

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long
( boyfriend going to raise both his hands and agree to this...hahx!)

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

so i went on and spent 1hr plus doing 80 over quizzes...HAHX! so i picked some random quizzes that i did.


Attitude towards your present situation in Life
You may not be so happy with your present situation. However, you think you can still get by.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test41.aspx


Emotions Test
The drawing of water springing out of the fountain tells something about emotions.

You have a strong masculine quality. If you want to annoy your loved one, you can just do it without hesitation. You are stubborn, faithful and frank. Sometimes, you laugh when you are not supposed to.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test39.aspx


Colours and Names
Here is the analysis:

The one who will never forget you is huixian.
The one who you can consider as your real friend is waiyin.
The one you really love is nic.
This may be your soulmate: myself.
The one you will remember for the rest of your life is jenny.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test10.aspx


Love Test
Here is the analysis:

When it comes to love, you take your time and do not fall in love easily.
You give 50% to your relationship and expect to receive 50% in return.
If there is a problem in your relationship, you are able to confront it in an optimistic way and full of hope. You want to work it out right away, all by yourself.
You need lots of reassurance in your relationship. You'd like to see your loved one every day, if possible.
You accept your loved one the way they are. You don't expect him or her to change for you.
When you love someone, you tend to stay in love for a long time.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test1.aspx

Your Working Style
You radiate sympathy and fellowship. You concern yourself chiefly with the people around you and place a high value on harmonious human contacts. You are friendly, tactful, and sympathetic. You are persevering, conscientious and orderly even in small matters, and inclined to expect others to be the same. You are particularly warmed by approval and sensitive to indifference. Much of your pleasure and satisfaction comes from the warmth of feeling of people around you. You tend to concentrate on the admirable qualities of other people and are loyal to respected persons, institutions, or causes, sometimes to the point of idealizing whatever you admire.

You have the gift of finding value in other people's opinions. Even when these opinions are in conflict, you have faith that harmony can somehow be achieved and you often manage to bring it about. To achieve harmony, you are ready to agree with other's opinions within reasonable limits. You need to be careful however, that you don't concentrate so much on the viewpoints of others that you lose site of your own.

You are mainly interested in the realities perceived by your five senses, so you become practical, realistic, and down-to-earth. You take great interest in the unique differences in each experience. You appreciate and enjoy your possessions. You enjoy variety but can adapt well to routine.

You are in your best in jobs that deal with people and in situations where cooperation can be brought about through good will. You are found in jobs such as teaching, preaching, and selling. Your compassion and awareness of physical conditions often attracts you to health professions, where you can provide warmth, comfort, and patient caring. You are less likely to be happy in work demanding mastery of abstract ideas or impersonal analysis. You think best when talking with people, and enjoy communicating. You have to make a special effort to be brief and businesslike and not let sociability slow you down on the job. (AHHHH...hey...that bold sentence is true!)

You like to base your plans and decisions upon known facts and on your personal values. While liking to have matters decided or settled, you do not necessarily want to make all the decisions yourself. You run some risk of jumping to conclusions before you understand the situations. If you have not taken time to gain first-hand knowledge about a person or situation, your actions may not have the helpful results you intended. For example, in the beginning of a new project or job, you may do things you assume should be done, instead of taking the time to find out what is really wanted or needed. You have many definite "shoulds" and "should nots," and may express these freely.

You find it is especially hard to admit the truth about problems with people or things you care about. If you fail to face disagreeable facts, or refuse to look at criticism that hurts, you will try to ignore your problems instead of searching for solutions.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test47.aspx

alright. done with the quizzes. its going to be lunch hr soon! hahahax...im good at wasting time. wonder what im going to do for the next SIX HOURS!! now that i have sufficient dividers, the mailroom ran out of ring binder. OH MY! so i cant do much now.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

blog hopping the whole morning while i photocopied my stuff. in fact i think i can finish what im suppose to complete by the end of today if i were to really rush it out. but well, i've got till thursday to finish them. so i better do it slowly anyway. and i think i cant do photocopying or binding work cox i always end up having paper cuts =(

and boyfriend is going to drive away all my friends i swear! was random so i msged ah ryl. and the first thing she said was 'now whenever talk to you must got jie xin, so talk to you very xin ku' HEY NICHOLAS ANG! see what u have done! grrrrr. but oh well, sometimes when he is so childish, i cant help it but to laugh at things that he's doing. he's really just like a little boy. but still, grow up young man, u're 20 already! =p

Monday, May 19, 2008

this weekend is probably one that i spent it happily. because weekends long, my work is ending soon. and im finally hearing some news.

sat was out shopping with my sis. sunday was pure rotting at home. BUT i did manage to drag myself out for a run because boyfriend say IM FAT. thx. so i did 4.2km. and today was spent at boyfiend's house baking cookies, talking, looking at photos of someone. and daddy mummy came to pick me up after that. luckily. otherwise i would be so lazy to travel home myself.hahx.

and and and. i desperately need a good pair of running shoes. the pair of running shoes that im wearing is giving me blisters. pain! time to shop for running shoes already!

photocopying and binding would take up my last 3 days of work in IMH. grrr. im getting so so sick and tired of doing that already. but she wouldnt be around. so that's fine i suppose. and i guess im too soft hearted. like im always complaining about her. always getting so angry cox im so bossed around. but when it comes to the last day when i know i wouldnt be seeing her anymore, my hatred just kind of disappear into thin air. and all the more when she gave me a hug and wish me the best (though boyfriend told me that she probably hug me because there wouldnt be anyone for her to boss ard or buy milk tea for her)but probably that happens to everyone too? since we are already leaving the workplace, why bother to hold on to the grudges. right? right.

aiya. nvm. random again.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

im rotting at home today! woke up at 8am, had my breakfast, read the papers, watch tv, went back to slp, woke up at 1pm, had lunch, watch tv and now im online. slp and eat! im going to run later already =/

anw, was out shopping with my sister ydae. and we bought this for mummy! hahahhahx!!



cute right?!!!



its a massager! hahahx!

okay. nvm, thats random. walked around. bought what we wanted and went back home.

and and and, boyfriend had his stiches removed. so now, he has got 3 of that 'me to you' bear scars. hurry recover so we can go out!!

and i was thinking of playing sims. but i forgot my sis deleted that from the com! AHHHH....and im lazy to re-install it. somemore it has got 4 disc, ahhh, forget it. so what should i do now?

Thursday, May 15, 2008

hmm. im sort of done with my work for next week already. how efficient am i. hahx! anyway, farewell lunch for me later! and i realise im eating way too much nowadays! and for the fact that i haven been running for the past 2 weeks, that's really bad. sometimes eating sweet stuff like donuts made me happier. and yar, felt so guilty putting them into my mouth. but oh well, sometimes i shld just eat.

and cecilia called me just now!! =)) so sweet! at least im not forgotten yet. haha! maybe i should be nice and drop by red cross on sat =)

alright. back to wrap up some final parts of my work.

tata~

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

YES! IM OFFICIALLY ENDING MY WORK NEXT FRIDAY!!! =)))) whee~~

she wanted me to work till end may and stacy wanted me to help her at her department for 2 weeks. BUT, i turned all down. i've seen and learn enough about IMH. so it's about time i go. i shall find another job!

im like so dying to end my work here in fact. simply because i find working here totally meaningless (except the ward audit part). i don't want to spend my days away just mere typing, photocopying, binding and being ordered around. and to think i can do these for 4 months. oh my!

alright, i better go back to my typing. im reaching my 67th page already. after typing for like 2days. how exciting! -_-''

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

maybe im alright already, maybe im not. maybe im not alright but im acting im alright. maybe im alright but im acting im not alright. ya. everything is just a MAYBE. sigh. whatever, i cant be bothered now. or maybe, i am still bothered by it. maybe im bothered but im acting as if im not. ya, that's what im good at.

argh. whatever. i think i just need a good run. you know, sometimes i think the words 'come what may' best explain everything.

argh. FORGET IT.

anw, i was so going to fall alsp while typing during work so i msged ryl. and i was telling her i miss eating ban mian! hahax. tat was so so random. and ryl was telling me she suddenly miss primary sch food. and i suddenly remember. HEY! I MISS PRIMARY SCHOOL FOOD TOO!! i miss that 10cent hotdog dipped in lots of tomato sauce and that 30cents chicken drumlets, that 20cents animal biscuit, that 40 cents chocolate cake, that 50cents chicken rice that doesnt like chicken rice!!! HMMM...and ryl was saying y i miss hotdog of all things. hahax..but that 10cent hotdog tasted really good! i cant find back that taste after eating years of hotdogs since then. and i really LOVE eating hotdogs! my mum was saying ever since i started work, there is no one at home to help her clear the hotdogs in the fridge...hahax...

and ryl gave my boy a name. called ah zhai = zhai nan = stay at home slp and play game. ahahhhax!

dropped by my boy's place during my lunch time ydae. and my toenail finally dropped off. no worries, painless. sometimes i just sit back and look at myself, i dont deny im really tired travelling to and fro. like shuttling between workplace and his house or shuttling between his house and mine. sometimes, im just amazed how much you can do for someone. and because it is YOU, i dont mind going that extra mile.

tata.

oh oh..before i end it..i found out ONE GOOD THING abt working in IMH. that is, THEY TEACH YOU TO LOSE WEIGHT AND BURN FATS!

HOW TO BURN YOUR FAT?
In fact, scientists have figured out that if you exercise at a level that brings your heart rate up between 60 and 80 per cent of its maximum, this is the optimum ‘fat-burning zone’.

To work out your own fat-burning zone, subtract your age from 220 to get your maximum heart rate. So, if you are 30 your maximum will be 220 – 30 = 90. Multiply that figure by 60 per cent and you get 114; multiply by 80 per cent and you get 152. Your optimum fat-burning zone is between 114 and 152 beats per minute.

for the past 11 days, emails been coming in to teach you how to lose weight. hahax! one strategy each day. how useful. ahahx.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

photos up! here it goes...

Friday
suppose to end my work at 5.30pm. but because i was rushing to finish up my stuff so i can send to my supervisor, i was delayed by 20mins. so at 5.50pm, i flew down to lavender to meet ryl, ah na, hengky and beth. luckily i was there on time at 6.50pm. took the escalator down to lavander station only to see ryl and na going up the escalator.

down the escalator
me: cheryl! ah na!
na: mok! mok! up! up! (hahax..we were laughing at it at the end of the day)
ryl: hurry hurry! (i think thats what she said)
me: *hurried up the escalator again*

so meanwhile, we were hiding ourselves at the staircase in case ah mok spotted us. i think it was after 20 mins that the cleared signal was given by huixian so we met up wif hengky and beth and went scouting for a good location for our surprise for dear ah mok.



in the process of lining up the lightsticks.



scene enactment. ah na called mok and tried to lure her to the place.the whole story was that ah xian bluffed ah mok for dinner near her place while ah na met up with one of their colleague somewhere there also. so ah na suppose to call ah mok, sounding panicky and worried to say their colleague sprained her ankle and its getting really bad and needed help from her since she knows some first aid.so mok will rush over and we will surprise her with all the stuff.and earlier on, we told mok we will celebrate her bdae for her next mon so it will not occur to her that we will spring a surprise on her.



hengky lighting up the candles while waiting for mok to rush over.



here's a completed one.with the lightsticks and bdae cake in the middle



mok came and ah na played a happy birthday song for her on the keyboard.



happy ah mok with her present!



a picture i insisted in taking. ahhax...the chocolate peppermint cake!



ah na wanted to take a picture of us. but apparently, no one wans to face the camera...hahax..except hengky that is.



ah xian!with ah mok at the back figuring out the keys



hengky and his pose!



me and ah ryl



our group photo!

after everything, wanted to head down to bugis for our dinner. but because we were happily talking on the bus, we missed the stop. so ended up at city hall. went the asian kitchen for dinner.



i was super hungry by then. but i was hungry till i became not hungry. so i just had this. doesnt look exactly appealing, but it tasted alright la.

n headed home at 11pm.

AND AND AND!!!so sad to know that ah beth can replace me in the fairies with just MERE PIECES OF CHICKEN CUTLET!!! what is this?!!! whose idea was that?! must be this ah beth, cheng wo bu zai tried to tiao bo li jian the fairies right? hahax...ah beth is the fairies wannabe now. status pending. ahhahax...

anyway. i must say ah mok's surprise was a successful one! we had always wanted to plan a bdae surprise, but ended up, thinking its abit hard. and we did it this time round. but i must say, i didnt came up with lots of ideas this time round. see la, nicholas ang!because of you okay. i think the only useful thing i did was to connect hengky eng with the the fairies so that he can help us out with the delivering work. ahhax.

and thx fairies for the comfort!

Saturday, May 10, 2008

wanted to blog about ah mok's bdae surprise...but but but...ah ryl has not send me any photos yet. shall hold on first.

today was spent at my boy's house in the morning till late afternoon. and i accidentally,unintentionally,hit on my poor boy's wound. IM SO SORRY!!!=((( hope it doesnt hurt that much =(

dinner was at peach garden with family because it is mummy's day today!



hahx, this is actually the last dish already. too happily indulging in my food so i didnt take any pic. this is some bamboo clam thingy. it has got a long long name for it but i forgot.



my dessert! mango,pomelo and sago



mummi's mango mousse cake!

in conclusion, today's dinner was good! and im really really bloated now.we had beijing kao ya for the first dish. it was good. except for the fats =/ (i gave it to my dad thou), then sharks fin, then sea cucumber and scallop, wasabe prawn (i love that! because it has got my favourite ebiko(pardon the spelling if it's wrong)on it! hahax!),fish,then the bamboo clam thingy and end of with the dessert.

and there was a funny conversation between us and the waitress. Because my daddy was asking the waitress what's that transparent small round thing on the wasabe prawn. I mean, my family was yan jiu-ing what was that. so my daddy decided to ask the waitress. here it goes.

daddy: may i know what is this
waitress: tadpole
family: HUH? WHAT?
waitress: hold on ( she went to get another colleague)
another waitress: yes. its tadpole.
family: *opened our eyes big*
another waitress: made from jelly
family: cheyy

anw, one funny thing i found out. u can get 1 dollar off parking fee if you dine there or smth i suppose. but the irony is that we spend like $500 on the dinner and we insist on getting the $1 parking fee back.

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

SEEHWEE IS REALLY BORED! oh my.

bored till i fell asleep in office today. i brought the boring-est copy of reader's digest to work today. so it didnt aid much in keeping me awake. i guess there isnt much to do during this period. i mean its good that i do not have to work much and i have money rolling into my pocket. but its tormenting because the time just doesnt seem to pass at all. (hahx. and when it gets all busy, i'll start complaining again. human's nature.) in my desperate attempt, i called boyfriend to entertain me. and guess what? i have such a sleepyhead boyfriend who sleeps at 1pm. sigh. i should have dropped by his place during lunch time. COX THERE ISNT A SINGLE SOUL IN OFFICE NOW except the cleaner (he actually tried entertaining me thou) i could have taken a 2 hour break.

and that andrew came to shake my hand again. i was trying to avoid him but he still came up to me. and asked me who i am. usual question from him. he cant seem to remember who he has approached before. but of course i dont blame him. if he is fit to work, he is mentally sound. just that some of his actions made me take a step back. but i guess he is just being friendly. no harm.

aiya, i think my life is really plain and boring now. especially when nothing constructive is done during work. i end my work feeling so unproductive. go home, eat dinner, watch tv, talk to boyfriend, sleep and the cycle repeats.( except for the occasional going out and all) im just living day by day. cant stand such a life. i need my life mapped out.

boyfriend's 'call you later' seems to be taking forever. i guess by the time he calls, lunch hour would have been over and i probably cant talk to him either.

argh. 4 more hours to end of work! quick quick quick.

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oh my!
i was so so so sleepy that i couldnt drag myself out of bed. my mum woke me up at 6.30am. had my breakfast and i went back to slp till 7.15am. thinking that it was still early, i continued slping till 7.35am. then 7.40am. then 7.45am. yea, n i finally got out of bed. changed and daddy drove me to work. and im still thinking of my bed now =( i was so tempted to just call xxx xx and tell her im sick or smth so i didnt have to go to work.

and my sis lent me her ipod to bring to work. but she didnt tell me she didnt charge =/ the bar is red now. think it will be gone soon.


"speaking about how difficult it is to confide in someone close to you might not seem to be the case on the other hand. i can easily confide with the fairies"

ps: ryl! i nva sae i not close to u all hor...read properly ma...

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

hahx! back again to blog. as you can see, im like pretty free today. easy earned money today and yday. xxx xx hasnt been much a problem at work nowadays. she was away for meeting most of the time yday, and today was just the occasional buying of milk tea, sending down laptop to her, updating her movement board, helping her shred like 10 pieces of paper, printed 2 documents(although i don't really understand why she cant print it herself since she could show me which 2 documents are to be printed on her laptop. all she needed to do was just to double click and click print. simple as that), help her make a phonecall, plan the audit schedule, send emails. comparatively, she didnt bug me too much today.

i was so bored i was randomly surfing NHG site. so i clicked on national skin centre and scrolled down to see all the different types of skin diseases. oh my! for the first time in my life, i got kind of disturbed by what i saw. i mean, i always get so excited looking at people's wounds and injuries and whatsoever. but when i saw the picture, i got so....ya...=x oh ya, speaking of that, i got reminded of what i saw yday at IMH. while talking to boyfriend on phone outside the office, i saw a patient who became so agitated that he required 4 strong men to pin him down. like 2 cisco police, 1 security guard and 1 staff. and nurses came with a bed and restrainer. hmm.

anw...

1 more hour to the end of work and i can go find boyfriend at his house. so now he enjoys the luxury of me finding him at his doorstep every now and then. i think im such a good girlfriend. whahax. nvm. random again. i miss my boyfriend like nuts now.

n notice the tone difference between my morning post and now? hahx. extreme mood swings i think.
long walk can simply help you to straighten out your thoughts. and so i did. walking like there's no ending. i thought i could have just walked non-stop during my lunch hour ydae and not head back to imh to work. but of course, i cant.

anw, i've more or less managed to convince myself to think less. at least for today that is.

in fact, acting happy can just make u happy. or probably turn what u are thinking into a joke, and all will seem just alright. yar, edward tan called ydae and asked me how i was doing and stuff and although i wasnt exactly happy at that time, i cant say out either. so i just simply told him what i thought and both of us laughed at it. and it worked! for the moment, i thought i was so stupid to think so negatively. ya. sometimes, it's easier to confide in someone not so close to you. sometimes, i just find it easier to talk to strangers about my problems and just laugh it over. simply because i cant breakdown in front of these people. it will probably scare them off. which explains y i do not confide in my parents nor my boy. they are probably the ones who are closest to me and i won't make it a point to hide my feelings. so i'll probably just cry non-stop in front of them which in any case, would not do any good to both parties. and of course, i tried confiding in my sisters, you know, like drop a couple of hints here and there that im worried or unhappy. but sometimes, it just doesnt work and it just make matter worst and i felt even lousier. speaking about how difficult it is to confide in someone close to you might not seem to be the case on the other hand. i can easily confide with the fairies. i msged ryl ydae when i felt so upset. i told ah na abt my past relationship last time. i can easily tell the fairies how i feel and somehow or another, they would just make me feel better.

so what is it?

nvm. just random thoughts. im off for lunch.

Monday, May 05, 2008

i was sianed when i got out of the car in the morning, climbed up the flight of stairs, pressed the pin number, opened the door, stepped into the office, walked to my seat but i BRIGHTENED UP instantly when i saw what was written on the movement board. she has got a meeting from 8.30am to 11.30am. YES! but then again, it just means i got to stone but in any case, that's definitely better than doing all the photocopying job which increases the rate of having cancer =/

i woke up from bed still feeling lousy. i must say talking to pearly is still the same.

time check: 9.25am

sigh. i guess i still have 3 more weeks to go before i end my work here. bet boyfriend must be slping like a pig at home now.

random joke
frustrated by cast members who kept singing off-key during our school play rehearsal, the musical director yelled, 'B Flat is the key, not the instruction!'

Sunday, May 04, 2008

Saturday

boyfriend went for an operation in the late morning. reached SGH at 2pm but he wasnt out from the operating theatre yet, waited till 3pm before he was wheeled to the ward. for the moment, he was just like a helpless little boy lying on the bed as the nurses wheeled him back. n the 'xin tong-ness' sets in when i saw that. my poor boyfriend. n even more xin tong for him when he told me he felt like vomiting n yet i couldnt do anything to ease it. sigh. but luckily he felt better after sleeping for awhile more. meanwhile, i was helping his bro with maths homwork. then his grandparents n aunty came to see him. SCARY LA. they like scrutinising you from head to toe. =/ dinnered with his parents n brother after that. was feeding him with bread and i should have fed him more. nan de he so guai (or rather he has got no choice) lie there n let me feed all i want. hahx. and his parents sent me home after that.

Sunday

reached the hospital at 8plus am. and the ang moh doctor is GOOD LOOKING and CUTE. hahx...the doctor told him how to take care of his arm, nurses came to dress his wound and yup, discharged in the afternoon. accompanied him to pharmacy to take his medicine, waited for his parents to come and went to his house. and yes, because i still owe boyfriend a deal. which is to drink milk. yea, the last time i drank was like 10 years ago. n so i took a sip. OH MY! I almost vomit that out. so disgusting la. IT STILL TASTE AS BAD. anw, accompanied him till late afternoon and went back home. n i'll probably not have anyone to send me home already =(

n im tired! hahx. okie, im lousy. just 2 days n im already worn out. but i guess it doesnt matter. cause im doing it for you =)

and and and. i think my appetite has been pretty lousy the past few days. i duno why. after i had eaten something, i felt like vomiting and my gastric hurts. and its funny. because when im fine and all, i was hoping i don't eat that much and now that i haven got much appetite, im making myself eat =/

anw, was on the phone with ryl and company. it always feel so good to hear them. even when you are down, they just kind of make you laugh like mad and you feel so much better =)

it's working day TML!!!! SIGH. BIG BIG SIGH. n boyfriend's mp3 died on me!!!! HOW TO SURVIVE DURING WORK?!! probably got to rely on my phone now. which means listening to the same songs over n over again =/

Friday, May 02, 2008

half the day gone! yes! met my boy during my lunch break which explains y time passes so fast cox i took like TWO HOURS break today. hahx. if only xxx xx is on leave everydae, that would be gd! n i believe i can walk everywhere now. i must treasure my pair of legs. they are hardworking. i walked to hougang point to meet my boy. n he's LATE despite living just opposite. (hahx. okie, shall not complain further) jollibean for lunch. and i was so full just eating the redbean pancake, soyamilk and a few mouthful of beancurd. i think my stomach became smaller. thats good. walked ard there and walked back to imh again. all under that blazing hot sun. but nvm, it has been so long since im out under the sun. 3 more hours to go, n i'll be done with work. and yes! weekends on its way. seeing boyfriend again for dinner later =) its good that he's having a 3mth mc. hahx. but thinking of the operation my poor boyfriend has to undergo, ouch. i think it must be painful. poor thing.
LAZY FRIDAY. im still in the labour day mood =( n im soo soo reluctant to do my work and since my boss is on leave, i shall slack abit. and in anyway, im not left with much things to do either. so tats fine i suppose.

Thursday
after all the talkings, reasons and persuasion, i was reluctantly convinced n decided to get myself out of the hse. crossed the overhead bridge, took 2 buses n went to boyfriend's hse under the HOT sun. e weather was sooo hot i thought i was melting and my sweaty palm activated and OH MY. hot like mad. n yes, boyfriend showed me pokka's facebook! ahhahax....so much for being my eye candy, he still looks shuai =) went plasma hunting and dinner with boyfriend's family and home sweet home.

Happy 8th Month BOYFRIEND! =) keep it going. hugs!