Wednesday, December 28, 2011

met up with my SW1101 (yes, 1101) friends =D the last time we met was like....at least half or one year ago! thats realllly long.

darren is the first among us to start working. SO BEING NICE, HE TREATED US FOR LUNCH =D yay! we were chatting and we realised how darren saw dawn and i through our uni life man. right from year 1 till now...like a daddy...hahah! its amazing how our friendship lasted all these while. how we still manage to keep in contact with each other despite all our busy schedules =) all thanks to sw1101 =D

left to meet fairies for dinnnnnner at indoor stadium! at last, the 5 of us could meet up!






ryl and na treated us to jumbo seafooood (my very generous friends) =D THANKS!


dinner was awesome and it felt like a family reunion dinner as we sat down for our meal. hahah! =) we have all grown up....and we said 10 years down the road, we will bring our kids out for meet up...coool...

Friday, December 16, 2011

birthday surprise for allena was a success =) yay!


quality time spent =)
photos from tgyc camp =D kind of miss the kids now that i look at the photos...














Wednesday, December 14, 2011

met up with baby for shopping and dinnnnnerrr!!! omg im damn sorry because i made her wait for me for like ONE WHOLE HOUR =X met up with dr so in school to discuss about analysis, hence the delay. sorrry babe!




we started snapping photos of ourselves after we bumped into a rat (i mean a real one) =x and joyce tried to scare me and SHE ENDED UP TRIPPING ON HER OWN FOOT....HAHAHAHHA! sillly.


dinnner part 2! part 1 was a pathetic half a popiah each....AHAHAHA!

my shopping only ended up with 2 pair or earrings, and new clothes for my chacha!

anyway! QUALITY TIME spent with joyce! YAY! =D hugs! and thank you for ur christmas carddddd tooo! =)

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

OMG IM DAMN TIRED.

tgyc camp ended last fri! =)) a new experience yet again! this time round, there were alot more overt and aggressive behaviour seen among the kids in my group. felt i could have better handled the situation. its funny because when i do therapy, no matter how the kid pushes his boundary, i can still remain firm and stick to the contract we set, ie having a clear consequence for every act. yet somehow, i cant apply the same when dealing with typical kids. i just cant bring myself to shout at the kids or to enforce consequences unless they have been warned many times. but yea, learning in process. but one thing for sure, i can better interact with the kids now compared to last tgyc camp. yay goood job! =D

anyway, i wasnt in good form during camp. of all time, i just had to fall sick during camp and my buddy was running a fever too. but im really proud because we pulled through and tried our best to put aside all our uncomfy-ness and lead the kids. welll done! =D

camp ended on fri afternoon followed by aar till evening. and to think i still have the energy to go out after that. tai li hai le.

therapy the next day but i was totally off form. headed back sch and nightmare began. OMG. i swear i had enough of codings and doing inter-rater reliability. spent like 3 days straight sorting through everything. everyone of us is probably stressed. stayed at starbucks 9 hours straight with ben n minqi yesterday to clear our inter-rater reliability. and its not helping when ppl raise their voices at me (yea, that explains for my previous post). im not well rested after camp, recovering from my damn infection, doing therapy over the weekends, chionging codings at home, slping late at night AND THE LAST THING I EVER WANT IS FOR SOMEONE TO RAISE HIS VOICE AT ME. you are probably stressed but im equally stressed too. called you early in the morning to ask u some stuff and all i got was 'I DON'T CARE'. fine. and when we met up, i don't even noe what u are peeved at and you just started raising ur voice. I REALLLY CANNOT STAND PPL RAISING THEIR VOICE AT ME!!!!! once you press that sensitive button, thats it. i broke down. damn. cried because i was realllllly angry and stressed and i don't get why must u add on to it. everyone else but you. it really makes me think and wonder.

Monday, December 12, 2011

i don't get it why people must raise their voice at others. i REALLLY REALLLLY HATE it when ppl raise their voice at me!

Friday, December 02, 2011

MY FIRST MAGNUM ICE CREAM! omg.




peppermint chocolate coffee. *slurp =)
YAY! EXAMS OVER!! =DDD

dinner with xinyi at holland v after our last paper ended! =)




the humongous portion.....




chatted with xinyi for like 5hrs straight! FIVE HOURS. hahhaha! we certainly can talk =)) ultimate QUALITY TIME =DDD


anyway, its like a burden off my shoulder when the exams ended. like finallly. too much of unnecessary pressure on myself. came to a point where i started thinking what am i studying for. i could just chill, do my minimum and graduate. does a second lower or upper class matter? guess its more of me trying to prove to myself that i can.

Friday, November 04, 2011

my patience was pushed to its limit during therapy yesterday. obviously i didnt blow my top on a young helpless child, but yea, i probably spent the entire 2 hours trying to get him to stop screaming. its funnny the way he test for ur boundaries. the more you want him to be quiet, the more he screams. the more he screams right into your face at such a high piercing voice you think you almost going to turn deaf. you gave the instruction for him to stand up and he just flopped himself on the floor and you repeatedly lifted him up over n over again, giving your instruction over and over again for him to stand properly. you cant seem to get his attention because he is simply drifting away or he just stare right through you. and again, you repeatedly gave your instruction, redirecting his attention to the task. sometimes it feels like a battle and you just need to show him that no way is he going to defeat you. only then will you get him back.

exhausted by the end of a 2hr session.

Monday, October 31, 2011

i just want to stone.

this sem doesnt bode well with my lousy eld grades =x sigh. cant wait for the semester to just end like NOWWWWW.

and im stuck with my 3000words assignment =(

roars.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Finally done with our group term paper and presentation =DD no more addictive behaviour assignments anymore till exams! yes!

Friday, October 21, 2011

im going nuts!

ever had a tooth that hurt so badly that u find yourself unable to slp? that you find yourself lying on bed and tearing because you are just so irritated by that damn tooth? that you find yourself waking up at 4am to study because the pain was so bad it only get worse when u lie down in bed? that you start to feel disgusted popping 4 panadols a day to kill the pain? that you wanted so much to do your work but you simply just cant concentrate? ROARS. omg. that was exactly how i felt the past one week. amazing how i survived through without having my parents and sisters think that I WAS DYING IN PAIN. suffering in silence totally =(

but yea. thank goodness the pain is GONE now.

don't know why i felt so depressed the past few days. the tooth probably contributed much of it but still....*shrugged

i guess we all have moments where we just want to cry =( and i guess im giving myself way too much pressure for dunno what reason. roars. time for a goooood run.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

TADAH! the trios met up =DD this is supposed to be a continuation of the previous post.





it was damn amusing when baby and i was shopping at f21 and i was telling her....'hey u noe what! u can just buy u noe...because mj and i got u f21 voucher =D' and then her eyes opened like DAMN BIG and she went 'WE GOT YOU F21 VOUCHER TOO!' hahahhaha! our belated birthday gift turned out to be the same. heh. so we happily bought our skirts =)) and happily wore it the next day. hahahaha!

Thursday, October 13, 2011

met up with babbbyyy =D hahahah! baby always sound misleading. but yea! our endearing terms for each other <3 HAHAHA!

WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING. ENDED UP TAKING PHOTOS. right....

OK! BACK TO WORK! more updates later when mj join us =D

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

ycamp afterglow =D



okapi and its group of volunteers =D










yay! so that nicely wrapped up ycamp =) haha! im abit of 'woman of few words' now because im zonking out already =x


Monday, October 10, 2011

met up with psychology clique few days back =D


it has beeeen near 3 months since we last met!! now that yifang, allena n jac are working...we don't even get to see other in school anymore =( our 3 hours of dinner and dessert was simply tooo short for us to do a proper catch up...but yea, nice catching up...just felt like how it was back then in school..heh =) all the bitching and 'woooo' and 'ahhhh' over the slightest issue. HAHA!

Saturday, October 08, 2011

id says go ahead while superego says no this is not right. and so ego has to balance between the demands from id and that of superego, which obviously, id had to give in to superego. yea man. hate it when i find myself doing certain things and i cant find an explanation to what im doing. if i noe is not right, then y do i still carry on doing it? is that supposed to mean anything? i dunnno =(

Friday, October 07, 2011

met ryl n na for dinnner =D it seems like i haven been seeing them for reallly longg...but yea...we went shopping for our halloween party =) hahaha! totallly random =x

AND RYL SAYS I NEED TO BLOG THIS. a new found academy called SEEHWEE'S ACADEMY =D apparently the first batch had graduated so they are the alumni of seehwee's academy now. the current batch is now in year 1 sem 2. HAHAH! and ryl and na are the advisor of this academy =p OK! nvm, inside joke. heh!

talking to ryl and na nva fail to make me laugh like i nva laugh before in my previous life. =DDD

see the fairies during halloween party! YAY! =D

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

eld paper was horrendous =x hate leaving the room feeling unsatisfied and insecured about the whole damn paper. and feeling totally OMG if i have to recall what i wrote for my answer =x roars.

8hrs spent editing addictive behaviour term paper with group mates today =x spent the bulk of our time discussing whether compulsive buying behaviour should be classified as impulse control disorder or as a form of addiction =x roars.

AND I ACTUALLY FORGOT ABT JOYCE'S 21ST BIRTHDAY PARTY. OMG. i feeeel damn lousy. how could it slipped off my mind =(((( like seriously. damn. sooorrrrryyyy baby! im so going to meet up with u next week! =( my memory is failing me....nooooo....

and yes! val and mabel's effort...i feel happy looking at the pot =D

Sunday, September 25, 2011

i don't know why but i just feel totally not motivated this sem. WHY?!

i just cant seem to sit still and do what i planned to do. making me so irritated. ROARS. need to find back my motivation......MORE COFFEE PLEASE. i have sooo many things on my 'to-do list' now and i don't know why i find myself so laid back =x tsk.

anyway, therapy sessions over the past 3 days were goood =D i totally melted when momo went 'teacher teacher, i want bao bao' omg. im more than willing to bao him. HAHA! and when i carried him, he would go 'teacher i wan turn' (asking me to turn in circles, and he would giggle and laugh). recently he has new stunts. he would ask me to tickle his elbow. apparently that amuses him and amuses me totally. HAHA! and sometimes he would smile so happily his face would come so near to mine, we would play the 'nose touch nose' game. HAHA! as in, momo's nose would touch my nose and vice versa. damn cute. AND I TAUGHT MOMO THE HOKEY POKEY DANCE =DDD heh. but therapy kind of hit an obstacle cox we really don't know how we could teach him to differentiate between soft and hard. he seems all confused and he just anyhow wack an ans each time i asked him. and yes, after 40 trials today, 30 trials yesterday and xx trials the day before, he finally could label the colour GREY! *claps sometimes i looked back and recalled how it was like during my very first therapy session. felt totally different. the past 7 mths haven gone to waste when i see how much momo have improved and how a stronger bond is formed between me and momo now =D

ppl wonder why is there a need to put children with autism in therapy. arent we forcing them to do things they would otherwise not like to do? shouldnt we leave them all alone. perhaps they like it that way? i really don't know how i would ans this because i've seen how much therapy can improve a child with autism and i don't see in what way momo is unhappy because we intruded his world.

Tuesday, September 20, 2011



ycamp is over!

i must say that ycamp was awesome, with awesome working partner, with awesome volunteers and awesome beneficiaries =DD so that made my experience in ycamp a GOOD one =)


it interests me to see how people coming from different backgrounds, people with different personalities, people with different working styles, people with different thoughts n ideals all come together to contribute their part for ycamp. its pretty encouraging to see the effort put in by everyone, that the beneficiaries are still loved no matter who they are =)))


i totally melted when i saw volunteers handling their beneficiaries. from being stunned and feeling at lost at day 1, to being enthusiastic and all hyped-up on day 2, to sharing their joy and experiences on day 3. all their effort count. every single bit of it. especially when i saw 3 guys in my group handling one kid. they were totally awesome and i just couldnt help but smile when i saw them all putting aside their manliness and did whatever they could just to interact and play with their beneficiary, bathed and cleaned and fed their beneficiary. i feel happy for them because their genuine act of wanting to help their beneficiary is remarkable, and for the fact that they had 0 experience handling children with special needs, they were awesome =)

im sure everyone in ycamp came for a purpose. definitely, conflicts and problems arise during camp but ultimately, i feel that so long as we have met our purpose/objective then all else is secondary.

and i definitely came home feeling 'value-added'. the camp totally made me realise how autism is truely hetereogenous. it is easy for us to reason but to reason with children with autism is not easy at all. we say children with autism has a deficit in theory of mind, the lack of ability to take someone else's perspective. but so? how are we going to make them understand that others have a mind of their own? why school textbook didnt teach me how to deal with that??! though at the end of the day, the problem was resolved but it was after much experimenting and testing what work and what didnt. but yea, i guess thats what learning is all about. and one of the beneficiaries totally made me laugh whenever i talked to him. a pity the rockwall was cancelled due to rain =( my beneficiary was totallly looking forward to it since day 1 =( but its alright! weather is unpredictable.


and one thing! i totally don't like it when people say the kid is autistic, the kid is intellectually disabled. no, they are not!!!!! they are children with autism, children with intellectual disability. the condition is a part of them, not the whole of them. so people, lets not label the children! not good!

anyway, ycamp ended on a happy note! so i shall wrap up my feelings and move onnnn!

Sunday, September 11, 2011

yay! my dajie just came home from london after 1.5mths! and she came home with LOTS OF SHORTBREAD =DDD


and she bought me a belated birthday present...heh shortbread again =)



and its damn cute cos you can wind the thing and it plays the happy birthday song =D

shortbread AGAIN! expensive shortbread that cost 10 pounds...



now my house is like a minimart full of shortbread, cookies and whatnot. haha!

Tuesday, September 06, 2011

i don't exactly know what i want to blog about. but i just want to blog.

i guess im pretty much overwhelmed by the heavy workload.not just sch work, but my tons of other committment out of sch. to the extent that i feel as if studying is not my priority anymore. which shouldnt be the case. i need to maintain my CAP! if not im just wasting my effort for the past 3 years pulling it up. so, press on!

anyway, went down to st andrew hospital in the evening and i was briefed about the experiment. i cant believe im acting as a stranger/experimenter for the Ainsworth Strange Situation. Its like, ainsworth strange situation is only something that we read about in books and now, i find myself being part of the experiment! ACTUALLY, ainsworth strange situation is not even within my scope and they just conveniently roped me into the experiment. but oh well, i guess its good exposure so i willingly agreed to help them out on top of running experiments for the 6mths infants. SO THAT MEANS GOODBYE TO MY SUNDAYs FROM NOW ONWARDS!

張芸京-相反的我
我看着镜子后面皱著眉的我
很孤单她有话想说
像天空不会永远都是蓝色的
有阴天你才会抬头
走穿多少的巷弄
笑了哭了
有三四个人爱我

Chorus:
我想要一个乱了
数字的时钟
我想做一个完全相反的我
我在这个世界拼命些什么
累死我
我有双不听任何命令的耳朵
去享受快乐加上自由的我
我要变成一颗透明的石头
我不会动
也不会痛

像轮胎用了太久 没气了 所以
原谅我 想消失几周
每个人都在选好的轨道奔走
讲真的我想要呼救
请看爱情的脸孔
美的丑的
几千万人都被愚弄了

Repeat Chorus
这个我 那个我
不一样的我
等什么 想什么
怕什么

ahahha! my song to listen to when im overwhemled with work. sometimes i really don't know why am i doing so many things at one time. but again, i realised that when i grow older, there are really alot of things out there that i want to try out. its really just a matter of taking that one step and you will realise how much you will gain in return. just like how i nva imagine myself being a therapist for a kid with autism. i reallly really learnt alot from it and i think this kind of experience is smth you wouldnt get in school and i totally didnt regret doing this. running experiments in lab is also another area we don't get out of textbooks. reading abt experiments and actually carrying em out are pretty much different. planning and running camps for typical and atypical children is also a good exposure for me especially when im studying psychology. i kind of like the feeling of knowing that i learnt something everytime i do a thing. is like i feel 'value added'. of course, at the end of the day, i get all stressed up and everything because i need to juggle this and that, but i think, its worthwhile. at least thats what i think as of now.

hokay, blog again later. back to my assignment.

Monday, August 29, 2011

looking at the list of deadlines....

- 7 sept commentary (AB)
- 11 sept critque (ELD)
- 14 sept commentary (AB)
- 16 sept reflective paper (child ab)
- 21 sept commentary (AB)
- 2 oct critque (ELD)
- 12 oct term paper (AB)
- 19 oct presentation (AB)
- 21 oct presentation (child ab)
- 8 nov presentation (ELD)
- 11 nov reflective paper (child ab)

i should stop thinking that im actually quite free =x

Saturday, August 27, 2011

i used to think i have superb memory and damn proud of myself that i do not need an organiser because i can rmb all the dates! but lately, im starting to change that view of mine =x and before i start to forget abt this n that, i better blog em down...

wed - meet someone at 5pm to collect stuff at bugis, 7pm ycamp meeting
thurs -grp meeting at ten am in school, ebees camp meeting at 4pm
fri -2pm at st andrew hosp for expt, 7pm ycamp meeting

ok, i think thats for my weekdays this week. at least thats what i rmb.

Friday, August 26, 2011

ROARSSSSS! IM FEELING SO IRRITATED!!

hate the feeling of wanting to do smth but find myself stucked at it =/ zzzzz.

just not the right mood today. damn it.

bu zhi dao wei she me you na me duo thoughts running in my head.

i feel so lost. like i don't know what im doing.

sigh.

if only i close my eyes and tadah, my commentary is done, jiu hao le..

alright, im totally just ranting random stuff on my blog.

back to work.


Wednesday, August 24, 2011

met val for tea at toy museum after my class =D

val wrote me this love letter. awwww =DD sweet to the max! you know, its amazing how our friendship went through all the ups and downs. and how volunteering and camps brought our friendship back again! =D to me, its not easy to find friends whom you would consider to be 'close', close in the sense that you can confide comfortably in them and no mater how unglam you are in front of them, it doesnt really matter because we would just laugh it all. there isnt a need to you noe, bao chi xing xiang kind of thing. and yea, val is definitely someone that fits nicely to what i say.

and yea, i rmb what we said back then in sch lib! hahahah! except that i forgot what rachel said =x heh! those were the memories man. val! hold on with samuel! im always damn amazed by you and samuel. 7 years and going strong =D make it 10yrs and settle down! =)

anyway. awesome quality time spent =D thanks for the treat too val! hugs!

Monday, August 22, 2011

did my 2% worth of assignment in the morning and afternoon before heading to therapy in the evening. im starting to feel that i can better interact with momo now than before! good thing. either he has shown improvement socially or maybe somehow, we have established a bond =)

met val, guan ning, ben and eileen after my therapy! i was supposed to head down to hatched BUT the cab took forever to come so ended up, they cabbed down from hatched and we headed to marriot for a drink =D


this is like my first time drinking wine with friends! atas dao yi ge bu xing!

and yes! it was farewell night for ben! all the best to u when u are overseas! =DDD



my huat kueh cake! hahaha =D


thanks for the card too! very big chinese name! hahha!



and thanks for all the ling ling long longs =DDD ben who chose it and val who gave advice over the phone. HAHA!




Saturday, August 20, 2011

had therapy in the morning and off i met ryl, na and mok at tampines! =D

this was damn funny! i caught mok whatsapping ryl! =X (mok always fail at hiding things from ppl) so i decided to join in the fun. hahaha! and the 4 of us just whatsapp-ed each other on our way to cityhall.

this is like the most creative candle i have ever seen! oh yes! fairies got me a greentea ice cream with red bean waffle! yums! all my fav in one dessert =DDD hahaha! but anyway, back to the creative candle. REALLY CAN BLOW E CANDLE!



they say must cut it like a birthday cake =x


and so i seriously cut it


ATTACK! nomnomnom







thanks fairies! =D short of mok in the photo but hope ur singing assessment/exam went well! =D

met my friend (thanks for the present! =D) for dinner at night and ended my day! =D

Friday, August 19, 2011

thanks xinyi and rouisanna for the chocolate CARAMEL (had to emphasize the word) cake =D thanks for the mini surprise after class today =) hugss!

and yes, met na and ryl after sch to chill at coffee club =) they were sooooo thoughtful and sweet and awesome and whatnot. because we have planned to meet tml with the rest of the fairies so i was asking her why couldnt we just meet all together then? and ryl told me 'cannot, is your birthday u cannot be alone, so must pei you' awwww...melted....and yes, thanks for the cake (tasted like sour prunes thou) too! haahhaha! =D










hahahha! retarded pic of the day.

headed for therapy next! momo was good. i managed to get him sing some part of a song =D

there was a farmer had a dog
and bingo was his name oh

B I N G O X3
and bingo was his name oh


HAHAH! now this song is stucked in my mind =/ one day, i will get him to sing the entire song!

had dinner with my family at airport after therapy! wanted my secret recipe cake and apparently they closed down =x erms. oh well.


so i had this cute cupcake instead! =D

amd a birthday card (together with a 1pg essay on how he made the card) mailed to my hse from guan ning! hahahahaha! thanksss! =D