met up with valerie today! it has beeeennn such a long long long long time since we two met up alone. but of course, we have been secretly updating each other through our blogs. haha! like what val says, it was something that we are proud of =)

valerie was so sweet! she gave me chocolates =)

and she made this herself!! so prettty =)

photos below are koped from val's blog. haha! and i don't know why i couldnt copy and paste photos from her blog to mine. and guess what i did? i went to printscreen everyone of them. haha!

we had our dinner at giraffe! a place that we think is atas. so we act atas. hee. the price of the food was pretty reasonable. it wasnt as expensive as we thought it would be.

soft and warm bread with this funnyblackoilyveggie thing to go with.

our $6 drinks!
=D

it was great meeting valerie again =) it feels so secondary school. and i can easily talk to her comfortably despite not meeting for long.

valerie! i bet u are reading this. hahaha!! thanks for being there for me ALL THE TIME! even though we dun meet up often, but whenever i met with something unhappy, u just appear somehow. from me & hs to me & nic, u have always been there. HUGS!

i really wonder where have i stood in ur heart. would you get over me in another couple of days?

its exercise day with the fairies! (ah sian is not present again!) we said to meet at 10am. and i think if ever one day, na and mok is not late.....SOMETHING MUST BE REALLY WRONG. i reached ryl's hse at 10.15am! and guess what?! na came ard 11.30 and mok 11.40 or smth? cant really rmb! seeeeeee....late for more than an hr!!! roars! but oh well...u noe, when u are more close to ur friends, u tend not to be punctual. good sign? haha!


i baked almond butter shortbread like last wk? hahahaha!! and i told ryl it doesnt taste as nice so i wrapped and give them!!!! HAHAHAH! seee....this is what good friends are for! clear ur stock!

while waiting for na and mok to come! look at ryl's cui small pillow...omg!

na and mok finally cameeee and down we went to gym! na was alone swimming. mok, ryl and i went running on threadmill.

bathed at ryl's house and time to cook lunch!

searching for pot!

even before we cooked, still want to take photos! ryl's reflective refrigerator!

na's cutting cabbage! ryl busy with her mcflurry! I WAS WASHING THE CABBAGE!

our ingredients! ramen, cabbage, sweet potato, cheese hotdog! WERID COMBI FOR RAMEN! hahah!! cox mok just brought what she found in her hse..heh!

pathetic sweet potato swimming in a pot of water. we nva get to eat it! BECAUSE WE WERE TOO FULLLLL!

yummmmmy!

our pile of starchy clumpy ramen! hah!

looks yummy?

TADAH! our ramen!

so totalllllly fulll! its more than enough for 4 ppl! we couldnt finish and we threw it away =x

watched ghost adventure which didnt had any impact on me =/ not scary enough. haha! slacked around and we headed home in the evening!

righttt....im going to get change and meet VAL! we haven had a proper meet up since SEC SCH! oh man! we are going to act atas! so fun! byeee!

ask me whether i am ok. i will say ok. whether i am really ok is another matter.

went for job interview at starhub today....BUT I DIDNT GET THE JOB! ahhh...ok nvm..they offered me another position which is that of customer service BUT a pity i couldnt commit for full 3 months. so no choice but to give it a miss. oh well, they sent my resume to another company. hope they get back to me fast!

dinner with mok, ryl and na at QQ noodle! a pity sian couldnt join us because she was working! so the jobless people gathered for dinner!

taken with ryl's polariod =)

headed to work next! typed typed and typed more letterssss! i thought zs was kidding when he said he find me at woodlands. so i didnt wait for him and boarded 161 only to realise that he reached woodlands =/

i'll be strong i'll be strong i'll be strong......but sometimesssssssssss.......its not easy =( the logical side of me has to dominate! emo side of me GO AWAY! shooooo! FORGET FORGET FORGET!

met ryl at changi airport today! went tcc for coffee and talk!

my iced minty mocha that ryl claimed it tasted like OTAH =X

and this ryl, caught me unaware....straw stuck in nose no 2 (first is ah sian!)

even though it was just a short 2hrs meet up....but it was more than sufficient to make me feel better =) thanks ryl!

zoomed off to tanah merah to meet up with my erjie, trained to pasir ris together where my parents and dajie were waiting. and off we went to east coast! buffet dinner at tung lok! sooooo fullllllllllll....oh mann...marina barrage next! went there for a strolllllll.....and homeeeee!

this funnny little green creature came flying into my living room. does it look like praying mantis? my mummy told me its 'ba long gong' and i burst out laughing...what a name...she told me people in the past believed that spirits will house themselves in this creature....so maybeee.....someone's back to visit? hah...no idea...

i was bathing when i realised my neck seems empty. the necklace is no longer there. the necklace that has been on my neck for the past 2yrs plus is gone. i guess the hardest thing to let go is knowing that u have been so close to this person for near 3 years, only to wake up the next day knowing that he is no longer there for u. how to pretend that nth has happened? that nth has happened for the past 2yrs plus? damn.

i hate the dec incident for happening. it left me so much bad memories. slowly recovering from it only to be hit by another incident. ROARS.

i promise this will be my last emo post. because im trained to fight away all unhappiness after all the bad things that happened.

i know i will stand up again after i cry. i'll face the truth and move on. i noe i will.

we finally came to a conclusion. no one wanted it to end but i guess, thats the best decision afterall.

here's my almond butter shortbread!

before it was sent into the oven...

into the oven!

tadah!

honestly, it tasted far from how a shortbread should taste like =( lousy recipe..not my fault ah...

asian civilisation musuem was prettty! i mean the outside....but my lousy handphone camera cant capture the prettiness...

its FAMILY gathering again! ahhaha! our sem-ly gathering =) out of the dozen of photos that we took, these were the only NOT blurred ones...hahahha!


spastic photos...haha!

darren's good photography skills...

family =)

and we say byebye to humairah who is going to NEW YORK to do her INTERNSHIP. OMG! she really cannn WRITEEEE veryy well to be accepted by them.

this is random...saw yf posted this on fb...so i went to take a loookkk...heee....

abit too small...click on the image to enlarge...

i think i belong to the category of fetus and freefaller sleeping position! i've nva slpt in a starfish position because i feel so insecure slping like that. won't u all feel so? what if something drop down and its going to land right on your face! ok, maybe thats just me.

righttt....after all the lovey dovey talk...time for some random stuff....

do u know that i thought MEE POK and BA CHOR MEE are the same?!!

i only knew the differences like yesterday when i was talking to my dajie. cause i like to eat mee pok with the tomato base. and i ordered ba chor mee thinking they are the same. then i was wondering why my ba chor mee has no tomato base but rather, is those black vinegar sauce. i just ate it anyway, thinking maybe this stall's ba chor mee is different. and the next time, i ordered ba chor mee again. and is the same black vinegar base. and again, i think the stall's ba chor mee is different. maybe they use different sauce. until yesterday when i was eating mee pok at hm...i told my sister and she went 'you know what, i used to think the same way as u do. but then i realised mee pok is mee pok, ba chor mee is ba chor mee, mee pok not equal to ba chor mee' HAHAHA! I THINK IM SO RETARDED! do u all think the same way as i do? or is it just me?

rightttt....im back home!


where did i stop?


ok, have to get back my train of thoughts first.....


ermmmm....


yes...stay firm and trash it out! thats my ans. alot of times, we start to take things for granted. that HE is supposed to do this and SHE is supposed to do that. we are imposing what we deemed as an ideal partner on the other party. in the process, we forgot what was the reason that drew you close to each other. what was the thing that made you like him in the first place. my prof told us in lectures that when he does marriage counselling, the question that he always throw to the couple is 'what was the reason that made you love each other in the first place.' sometimes, we place such an high expectation on our partner that when these expectations arent met, we get angry and when your partner knows that he is not meeting your expectations, he feels lousy. i admit im one of those people who thinks that boyfriend should be like this and like that. why isnt he romantic, why doesnt he gives me surprises. yet i forgot the reason that drew me to him - the way i like him as a practical guy. isnt it such a irony? the reason that made you like him becomes the reason that made you unhappy. i couldnt help but think that im such a silly person. when your differences get too big to handle, stop and ask yourself, what exactly made you fell for him in the first place? are your differences so big and serious, over and above the reasons that binded you two together in the first place? sometimes when you take a step back and look at the bigger picture, you will realise that the differences isnt all too big afterall. learn to accomodate to the needs of each other i would say. over millions of people that you came across, why did you choose only him/her and not others? thats fate i would say. learn to cherish what fate has brought for u.

actually i talked so much, i don't know what im driving at. i just know that there is no problem that cant be solved. there is a reason why it is called a problem. because theres always solution to it =)

i know i will iron out all the differences between bf and i. i realised how open bf and i are, we can talk abt problems we are facing and solve it as if it was a maths qns, step by step. and i know this time round, we will do the sum right too.

love u dear! <3

ahhh...just made a cup of white coffee for myself =) im starting to love drinking coffee (not those black coffee) drinking coffee makes me feel that life is good for THAT moment. it has a calming effect on me. it makes me energetic instantly. and most importantly, it keeps me awake during exam period.

im starting to ponder alot about relationship. what exactly is the 'thing' that keeps a relationship going? as a relationship mature, it is as if it has transcended into another stage. a couple is no longer in a honeymoon period, there is no longer this excitement of wanting to know more about each other because as days pass, things become more or less predictable. a couple may not meet as frequent, may not msg as frequent, even all the sweet talkings would have disappeared. there is no longer this halo effect where your partner seems just so perfect to you. slowly, as u discover, your partner may just have as many flaws as you do. i wouldnt say this is all bad. i believe it is what every couple goes through. i mean, after all the initial passion and excitement, somehow, it has to die down. and what that remains, is up to the couple to learn to manage all the differences between them that determines whether a relationship will last. what if the differences are so great that a couple cant learn to manage? to me, that is just an excuse. i don't believe there is too big a difference that cant be handled. is really a matter of whether u want to put in the effort to do it or not.

conflicts become more frequent as a relationship mature because gone were the days where a couple would tolerate and give in to each other like it was before, so afraid that you would make him/her angry. why is that so? because having known each other for so long, things become so predictable that you know that it is just another episode of his/her 'tantrum'. we voice out our unhappiness, we say out what we think...and it is then that we realise how different we both were. so what now? to run away from the problem? to give up? or stay firm and trash it out?

TO BE CONTINUED......

ahhh...ok..no time for my lovey dovey talk. my mum hurrying me to bathe cox we are going out...

lets mourn for the loss of 20 marks for my i/o psychology exam = 10% of final grades =(

1 min of silence pls.

may u rest in peace and not pull my grades down by too much.

IM SO SERIOUSLY SADDDDDD....TOTALLY =( so disappointed at myself. hai.

was talking to huiqi on our way back and i realise WHY IS IT THAT MY LAST PAPER FOR EVERY SEM IS SCREWED?! RAHH! irritating.

forget it. i shall remain happyy, i cant do anything either...im showing signs of emotional focused coping! positively reframing my thoughts. i realise i like health psychology =) and abnormal psychology too =) they make me happy studying em. UNLIKE I/O psyc ! booo!

oh well. exams are finally done! END OF YEAR 2!! oh man..thats really fast! actually theres alot of time where i wanted to blog, but end up i didnt. so now i shall recall what i wanted to blog back then....

lets see.....


1. an evening run around punggol
i was running around my place when i ran past a group of wild dogs (more than 2 is a group right? hahaha! okay, there was 3 wild dogs to be exact) and i was so worried that they would run/chase after me seeing that i was running!! (i always think a dog would chase after me if they see me running...true right?) and soooo....i rannn realllly sloowwww.....and i ran past them sucessfully without being chased. THENNNNNNNNN.....out of nowhere....i saw a black skinny SNAKE glided past me! right beside my right foot!!!!!! i was so horrified i dashed across the road =/ (not to worry that cars would knock me down, because that road was pretty quiet) omg! i cant believe that was a snake. i rmb seeing one 2 yrs plus ago outside punggol mrt station when i was with bf...and now, i saw one again! IN THE END, I GAVE UP RUNNING. and partly because it was going to rain. i sounded as if i went running in a jungle or smth...HAHA! bump into wild dogs and snakes. but well...punggol isnt that ulu..just that i ran to the more ulu part because HDB is building flats everywhere in punggol!!! (i really wonder who is going to stay there....are we having some population explosion or smth? ) i cant find an area where i can breathe in some clean and fresh air!!!!! oh well..i did...but at the expense of bumping into snakes and wild dogs =/

2. swimming with bf
we took the slides down!!!! so scaryyyy! but fun =) heh. and shortly after we slide down, there was this swarm of bees who invaded the slide area =x luckily we went up already...heh...lunched at mac and i stayed alone to study for my exams...this post is like 2 weeks ago? HAHA!



3. ydance and yarts
first experience =) nice one =)

4. my mum was packing the cupboard and she showed me this!

cuteeeee? this was knitted by my great grandmother for my daddy (don't ask me why my great grandmother knitted a pink one for my dad). and this was passed on to my dajie, erjie, and I! wow! i didnt know my tiny little feets fitted in these knitted shoes =)

5. running with sisters

all ready for a run only to find that it started to drizzle when we got down. so guess what? we did sprints under the void deck and we played catching! ahahahha! can u imagine a 27, 23 and 21 yr old girl played catching together? heh! but we barely ran for 10mins thou. hee..but still....it was fun =) the rain stopped and we went for our run....no more snakes and wild dogs this time. but we saw dead rat =/ ermmmm......

AH YES. i forgot im suppose to book for badminton courts for tml! will update again sooonn!!