u know, i don't know how i should feel now. i went for a longggg run just now and i find myself tearing when i run. i dunno why. after near a year of waiting, that was the conclusion. was my wait worth afterall? i guess there's nth much to be sad abt but i dunno why i just find myself pretty much bothered by it. WHY?! i feel like im a toy somehow. up to u to define whats a toy.

you asked whether im ok, i guess i am on the surface.

hate it when my emotions go on a roller coaster ride =(