OMG IM DAMN TIRED.

tgyc camp ended last fri! =)) a new experience yet again! this time round, there were alot more overt and aggressive behaviour seen among the kids in my group. felt i could have better handled the situation. its funny because when i do therapy, no matter how the kid pushes his boundary, i can still remain firm and stick to the contract we set, ie having a clear consequence for every act. yet somehow, i cant apply the same when dealing with typical kids. i just cant bring myself to shout at the kids or to enforce consequences unless they have been warned many times. but yea, learning in process. but one thing for sure, i can better interact with the kids now compared to last tgyc camp. yay goood job! =D

anyway, i wasnt in good form during camp. of all time, i just had to fall sick during camp and my buddy was running a fever too. but im really proud because we pulled through and tried our best to put aside all our uncomfy-ness and lead the kids. welll done! =D

camp ended on fri afternoon followed by aar till evening. and to think i still have the energy to go out after that. tai li hai le.

therapy the next day but i was totally off form. headed back sch and nightmare began. OMG. i swear i had enough of codings and doing inter-rater reliability. spent like 3 days straight sorting through everything. everyone of us is probably stressed. stayed at starbucks 9 hours straight with ben n minqi yesterday to clear our inter-rater reliability. and its not helping when ppl raise their voices at me (yea, that explains for my previous post). im not well rested after camp, recovering from my damn infection, doing therapy over the weekends, chionging codings at home, slping late at night AND THE LAST THING I EVER WANT IS FOR SOMEONE TO RAISE HIS VOICE AT ME. you are probably stressed but im equally stressed too. called you early in the morning to ask u some stuff and all i got was 'I DON'T CARE'. fine. and when we met up, i don't even noe what u are peeved at and you just started raising ur voice. I REALLLY CANNOT STAND PPL RAISING THEIR VOICE AT ME!!!!! once you press that sensitive button, thats it. i broke down. damn. cried because i was realllllly angry and stressed and i don't get why must u add on to it. everyone else but you. it really makes me think and wonder.