met up with my SW1101 (yes, 1101) friends =D the last time we met was like....at least half or one year ago! thats realllly long.

darren is the first among us to start working. SO BEING NICE, HE TREATED US FOR LUNCH =D yay! we were chatting and we realised how darren saw dawn and i through our uni life man. right from year 1 till now...like a daddy...hahah! its amazing how our friendship lasted all these while. how we still manage to keep in contact with each other despite all our busy schedules =) all thanks to sw1101 =D

left to meet fairies for dinnnnnner at indoor stadium! at last, the 5 of us could meet up!

ryl and na treated us to jumbo seafooood (my very generous friends) =D THANKS!

dinner was awesome and it felt like a family reunion dinner as we sat down for our meal. hahah! =) we have all grown up....and we said 10 years down the road, we will bring our kids out for meet up...coool...

birthday surprise for allena was a success =) yay!

quality time spent =)

photos from tgyc camp =D kind of miss the kids now that i look at the photos...

met up with baby for shopping and dinnnnnerrr!!! omg im damn sorry because i made her wait for me for like ONE WHOLE HOUR =X met up with dr so in school to discuss about analysis, hence the delay. sorrry babe!

we started snapping photos of ourselves after we bumped into a rat (i mean a real one) =x and joyce tried to scare me and SHE ENDED UP TRIPPING ON HER OWN FOOT....HAHAHAHHA! sillly.

dinnner part 2! part 1 was a pathetic half a popiah each....AHAHAHA!

my shopping only ended up with 2 pair or earrings, and new clothes for my chacha!

anyway! QUALITY TIME spent with joyce! YAY! =D hugs! and thank you for ur christmas carddddd tooo! =)

OMG IM DAMN TIRED.

tgyc camp ended last fri! =)) a new experience yet again! this time round, there were alot more overt and aggressive behaviour seen among the kids in my group. felt i could have better handled the situation. its funny because when i do therapy, no matter how the kid pushes his boundary, i can still remain firm and stick to the contract we set, ie having a clear consequence for every act. yet somehow, i cant apply the same when dealing with typical kids. i just cant bring myself to shout at the kids or to enforce consequences unless they have been warned many times. but yea, learning in process. but one thing for sure, i can better interact with the kids now compared to last tgyc camp. yay goood job! =D

anyway, i wasnt in good form during camp. of all time, i just had to fall sick during camp and my buddy was running a fever too. but im really proud because we pulled through and tried our best to put aside all our uncomfy-ness and lead the kids. welll done! =D

camp ended on fri afternoon followed by aar till evening. and to think i still have the energy to go out after that. tai li hai le.

therapy the next day but i was totally off form. headed back sch and nightmare began. OMG. i swear i had enough of codings and doing inter-rater reliability. spent like 3 days straight sorting through everything. everyone of us is probably stressed. stayed at starbucks 9 hours straight with ben n minqi yesterday to clear our inter-rater reliability. and its not helping when ppl raise their voices at me (yea, that explains for my previous post). im not well rested after camp, recovering from my damn infection, doing therapy over the weekends, chionging codings at home, slping late at night AND THE LAST THING I EVER WANT IS FOR SOMEONE TO RAISE HIS VOICE AT ME. you are probably stressed but im equally stressed too. called you early in the morning to ask u some stuff and all i got was 'I DON'T CARE'. fine. and when we met up, i don't even noe what u are peeved at and you just started raising ur voice. I REALLLY CANNOT STAND PPL RAISING THEIR VOICE AT ME!!!!! once you press that sensitive button, thats it. i broke down. damn. cried because i was realllllly angry and stressed and i don't get why must u add on to it. everyone else but you. it really makes me think and wonder.

i don't get it why people must raise their voice at others. i REALLLY REALLLLY HATE it when ppl raise their voice at me!

MY FIRST MAGNUM ICE CREAM! omg.

peppermint chocolate coffee. *slurp =)

YAY! EXAMS OVER!! =DDD

dinner with xinyi at holland v after our last paper ended! =)

the humongous portion.....

chatted with xinyi for like 5hrs straight! FIVE HOURS. hahhaha! we certainly can talk =)) ultimate QUALITY TIME =DDD

anyway, its like a burden off my shoulder when the exams ended. like finallly. too much of unnecessary pressure on myself. came to a point where i started thinking what am i studying for. i could just chill, do my minimum and graduate. does a second lower or upper class matter? guess its more of me trying to prove to myself that i can.

my patience was pushed to its limit during therapy yesterday. obviously i didnt blow my top on a young helpless child, but yea, i probably spent the entire 2 hours trying to get him to stop screaming. its funnny the way he test for ur boundaries. the more you want him to be quiet, the more he screams. the more he screams right into your face at such a high piercing voice you think you almost going to turn deaf. you gave the instruction for him to stand up and he just flopped himself on the floor and you repeatedly lifted him up over n over again, giving your instruction over and over again for him to stand properly. you cant seem to get his attention because he is simply drifting away or he just stare right through you. and again, you repeatedly gave your instruction, redirecting his attention to the task. sometimes it feels like a battle and you just need to show him that no way is he going to defeat you. only then will you get him back.

exhausted by the end of a 2hr session.

i just want to stone.

this sem doesnt bode well with my lousy eld grades =x sigh. cant wait for the semester to just end like NOWWWWW.

and im stuck with my 3000words assignment =(

roars.

Finally done with our group term paper and presentation =DD no more addictive behaviour assignments anymore till exams! yes!

im going nuts!

ever had a tooth that hurt so badly that u find yourself unable to slp? that you find yourself lying on bed and tearing because you are just so irritated by that damn tooth? that you find yourself waking up at 4am to study because the pain was so bad it only get worse when u lie down in bed? that you start to feel disgusted popping 4 panadols a day to kill the pain? that you wanted so much to do your work but you simply just cant concentrate? ROARS. omg. that was exactly how i felt the past one week. amazing how i survived through without having my parents and sisters think that I WAS DYING IN PAIN. suffering in silence totally =(

but yea. thank goodness the pain is GONE now.

don't know why i felt so depressed the past few days. the tooth probably contributed much of it but still....*shrugged

i guess we all have moments where we just want to cry =( and i guess im giving myself way too much pressure for dunno what reason. roars. time for a goooood run.

TADAH! the trios met up =DD this is supposed to be a continuation of the previous post.

it was damn amusing when baby and i was shopping at f21 and i was telling her....'hey u noe what! u can just buy u noe...because mj and i got u f21 voucher =D' and then her eyes opened like DAMN BIG and she went 'WE GOT YOU F21 VOUCHER TOO!' hahahhaha! our belated birthday gift turned out to be the same. heh. so we happily bought our skirts =)) and happily wore it the next day. hahahaha!

met up with babbbyyy =D hahahah! baby always sound misleading. but yea! our endearing terms for each other <3 HAHAHA!

WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING. ENDED UP TAKING PHOTOS. right....

OK! BACK TO WORK! more updates later when mj join us =D

ycamp afterglow =D



okapi and its group of volunteers =D

yay! so that nicely wrapped up ycamp =) haha! im abit of 'woman of few words' now because im zonking out already =x

met up with psychology clique few days back =D

it has beeeen near 3 months since we last met!! now that yifang, allena n jac are working...we don't even get to see other in school anymore =( our 3 hours of dinner and dessert was simply tooo short for us to do a proper catch up...but yea, nice catching up...just felt like how it was back then in school..heh =) all the bitching and 'woooo' and 'ahhhh' over the slightest issue. HAHA!

id says go ahead while superego says no this is not right. and so ego has to balance between the demands from id and that of superego, which obviously, id had to give in to superego. yea man. hate it when i find myself doing certain things and i cant find an explanation to what im doing. if i noe is not right, then y do i still carry on doing it? is that supposed to mean anything? i dunnno =(

met ryl n na for dinnner =D it seems like i haven been seeing them for reallly longg...but yea...we went shopping for our halloween party =) hahaha! totallly random =x

AND RYL SAYS I NEED TO BLOG THIS. a new found academy called SEEHWEE'S ACADEMY =D apparently the first batch had graduated so they are the alumni of seehwee's academy now. the current batch is now in year 1 sem 2. HAHAH! and ryl and na are the advisor of this academy =p OK! nvm, inside joke. heh!

talking to ryl and na nva fail to make me laugh like i nva laugh before in my previous life. =DDD

see the fairies during halloween party! YAY! =D

eld paper was horrendous =x hate leaving the room feeling unsatisfied and insecured about the whole damn paper. and feeling totally OMG if i have to recall what i wrote for my answer =x roars.

8hrs spent editing addictive behaviour term paper with group mates today =x spent the bulk of our time discussing whether compulsive buying behaviour should be classified as impulse control disorder or as a form of addiction =x roars.

AND I ACTUALLY FORGOT ABT JOYCE'S 21ST BIRTHDAY PARTY. OMG. i feeeel damn lousy. how could it slipped off my mind =(((( like seriously. damn. sooorrrrryyyy baby! im so going to meet up with u next week! =( my memory is failing me....nooooo....

and yes! val and mabel's effort...i feel happy looking at the pot =D

i don't know why but i just feel totally not motivated this sem. WHY?!

i just cant seem to sit still and do what i planned to do. making me so irritated. ROARS. need to find back my motivation......MORE COFFEE PLEASE. i have sooo many things on my 'to-do list' now and i don't know why i find myself so laid back =x tsk.

anyway, therapy sessions over the past 3 days were goood =D i totally melted when momo went 'teacher teacher, i want bao bao' omg. im more than willing to bao him. HAHA! and when i carried him, he would go 'teacher i wan turn' (asking me to turn in circles, and he would giggle and laugh). recently he has new stunts. he would ask me to tickle his elbow. apparently that amuses him and amuses me totally. HAHA! and sometimes he would smile so happily his face would come so near to mine, we would play the 'nose touch nose' game. HAHA! as in, momo's nose would touch my nose and vice versa. damn cute. AND I TAUGHT MOMO THE HOKEY POKEY DANCE =DDD heh. but therapy kind of hit an obstacle cox we really don't know how we could teach him to differentiate between soft and hard. he seems all confused and he just anyhow wack an ans each time i asked him. and yes, after 40 trials today, 30 trials yesterday and xx trials the day before, he finally could label the colour GREY! *claps sometimes i looked back and recalled how it was like during my very first therapy session. felt totally different. the past 7 mths haven gone to waste when i see how much momo have improved and how a stronger bond is formed between me and momo now =D

ppl wonder why is there a need to put children with autism in therapy. arent we forcing them to do things they would otherwise not like to do? shouldnt we leave them all alone. perhaps they like it that way? i really don't know how i would ans this because i've seen how much therapy can improve a child with autism and i don't see in what way momo is unhappy because we intruded his world.