im very puzzled with all the things that happened. it feels as if i have lost myself.

i don't feel myself anymore. im like a 3rd party hovering above.

no worries, its not some sort of derealisation/depersonalisation.

I JUST FEEL SO NOT MYSELF. incomplete. and it feels as if my life is ruined or smth. especially when i looked back and it takes me a second to realise that i hate you.

ok. ignore this post. i know its just a moment of my emotional thoughts.