hmm...i sat infront of my com for e past 1 to 2 hrs...tryin to think postively...n comfortin myself...n i guess...i straightened my thoughts out...i was openin this file tat i once type in it...it consist of everythin tat happened since 7 nov 2003 till 19 jan 2005...inside this file...i read thru everything...i tracked back e times when i broke up wif him on 18 jan 04 n later on in 19may 04...i read thru e time when i had a hard period...tryin to stop myself from bein sad...and how we eventually patch again n how i was happie again...actually in e relationship...i realli been thru alot...be it happie or be it sad...and i grew stronger each time...this is e third time we broke up...n i guess tat mark e end to everything...sad case thou...but i'll cross this obstacle...

im tryin to stay strong thou it may be hard...so i decided to type everything i wanted to sae in tat particular file...exactly one year for e next update in tat file...19 jan 2006. did felt much better after typin everythin out...computer is a gd confidante...n also...thanks to valerie, wenzhao and teng ming who tried comfortin me...it did help alot...thanks ppl!! *hugs*

im amazed at my recoverin speed thou...but there are still times when i think back of e past...i broke down again...but i guess it takes time...dunnoe when will it be...maybe when my Mr. Right appears...i'll be happie once again...=)