moooody to the max =( ROARS! I JUST FEEL MOODY =((( i dunlike to see 'Inbox(0)' in my hotmail.

and i don't know why i was so stressed yesterday. i just feel the essay that i've written is crap =/ and final exams are coming and i've yet to prepare. 1 more presentation and 1 more paper to go before i end the sem. boooo! thankfully babe was around and that makes me less stress after talking to her =)

anyway,

volunteer work at botanical gardens was fun despite the scorching sun. and i guess i haven been to botanical gardens for longgggggg, it suddenly seemed sooooo big to me! lectures about autism in school makes me understand the kids more than before. which is good in a way but i really hope one day, there's a cure for it. the food prepared by the parents was a whole lot! i think the whole group of us can survive on those food for 2 - 3 days. haha! sometimes i feel glad that despite these kids having intellectual disabilities etc, they still have a loving family. at least they are not being abandon.

one volunteer was saying he doesnt like to do volunteer work that has no purpose/no objective etc. initially i also thought so. but then i thought abt it again and i felt that what these kids really need, is our presence. sometimes we just play games, have meals with the kids. it may seem meaningless on the surface but our presence is what that allows them to see that they can be integrated into the mainstream, that they are not oddballs in the society. our interactions with the kids also teaches them the proper way to communicate, to interact with other people. our presence is like a practical session for them. sooooo...what that seems meaningless is NOT.

and i seriously think there is a need to remove the stigma in our society. why are ppl staring at these kids like they are monster or smth? one of the caregiver was telling me how a middle aged lady shouted 'molest' when the boy accidentally touches her. oh pls! want to molest also molest someone younger right? and even after the caregiver explained to the lady that the boy has autism, the lady was still so irritated by him.

ok. enough of my random thoughts.

im stillll moodddyyyy after typing a whole chunk of random thoughts. feel like slping but i think im wasting time. i have such a boring life. was telling babe n rousi that i want to pick up some new skills. likeeeeeeeeee dance or smth. AND BABE TOLD ME LEARN WHAT TU FENG WU! =x thanks ah. i cant imagine myself doing that.