this is e first time im tryin to blog...n lookin ard e office at the same time...makin sure no one catches me bloggin...=x aiyo..feel as if im doin some jian bu de guang de shi...supervisor went to ttsh for meeting...n im sort of done wif wad ive been doin for at least 2weeks..compling all the SOP and printing, photocopyin,filing em up...n here i am...sneakin into blogger.com to blog..hahax...

ryl arh! i think ur ghost more 'xiong' than mine la...but i agree wif ur pt...sometimes i just feel so bad abt myself...like im so not perfect...n it just bug me at times...sigh. emo again. grrrr....

okie..i better stop bloggin le...1 and a half more hr to the END OF WORK!

finally....finallly...finallly is fri! oh my...time was realli C R A W L I N G todae...luckily there was ward audit todae...so mornin went by pretty fast..but after lunch hr...e time was realli realli slow...n i was alreadi sianed wif e things tat im doin...all e colleagues were alreadi drained off...all countin down to e end of work n encouragin one another that work is endin soon...hahx...n i bet cecilia is enjoyin her phuket trip...grrr...i wan go holidae too!! but cecilia was realli sweet ...i was down wif a flu tat dae..n she offered me her sweater and a packet of instant ginger tea...hahx...supposed to cure my flu...but i didnt dare to drink it...=x but she's awae now...no one to disturb when im sianed wif work..no one to walk home wif me...=(

anw...past few daes have been goin for ward audits...seen alot of things n learnt alot along e way...n it made me realise...all e more i wan to work along this line because there are soo many patients there who are neglected in some ways or other...i wan to help these ppl n change their lives...hahx..i sound so 'standard ans' liddat...but im serious! pls pray tat my alevel results would be fine...e more i think abt it...e more i think im goin to screw up my alevels...oh my...=/ wad if i realli did badly for alevels???
1. retake alevels (which i doubt i'll do it..i've probably forgotten all my stuff n i wouldnt wan to repeat e whole cycle of muggin)
2. go private uni (higher expenses)

i probably wouldnt be in any mood to go to work...i'll probably be depressed everydae...

HAIXX...i cant help thinkin tat much...tats so me...consequences of thinkin too much =/

"keep ur face alwaes toward the sunshine and shadows will fall behind you" hmm..i thought tat's a nice quote...

anw..someone saes im contradictin myself cox i cant wait to end work yet enjoyin work also..so here it goes...goin to wards interest me cox i get to see diff type of patients n learn more abt their disorder...but time crawls when im doin admin stuff...like photocopyin n filing...so is a 50-50 thing...when ward audit is done for e dae..i cant wait to end work...yuppp...

haixx....is a sunday night...monday mornin will be here soon...=(((

my only motivation to keep me goin will be the fact tat i get to meet boyfriend for dinner tml...hopefully this will pull me thru till six...

3 rules of work
out of clutter find simplicity
from discord find harmony
in the middle of difficulty, lies opportunity

okie..tats wad e famous Albert Einstein says...i'll try to follow tat...

went to my aunt's place in e afternoon...is like a gathering place for everyone...so all relatives will turn up there...played mahjong wif cousins but i got sianed halfway...so i went walkin ard bishan park wif my sis...left in e evening...

went for a run wif sis when we got home...n we actually made it to jalan kayu...hahahx =) beancurd was our motivation...BUT...we forgot is 'chu er'...e shop wasnt open...zzzz...no tau huay to eat...ended up wif 2 bottles of mineral water n took a bus back...but it was a nice run..haven been runnin for weeks...

i realise i like to eat all the 'beany' things...hahx..nvm..random...

n it's so fast!tml sat le! then sunday...then MONDAY! =(

NEW YEAR EVE

went to ah ma hse for reunion dinner!! =) nice catchin up wif all my cousins...played some games...n it was realli furnie...hahax...then went down to play fire sparklers...everyone like small kids liddat...







e cousins!
okie..i noe e pic is abit dark..hahax..i think they didnt on e flash when they took e pic...

CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

woke up at 7.30am todae! so early la...cant stay in bed for any longer cox we haf to leave hse ard 9am...so i dragged myself out of e bed..complainin to my sis tat i haven slept past 6.30am for like so longggg...

anywae..took us soo long to get change...tats e problem when e family has got 4 females n 1 male...hahax...cox we like take forever to dress up..then my daddi has to sit there n wait for us n keep hurryin us...hahx...

anywae...headed to ah ma hse...some pics in e car while we were on our way there...


me n erjie

hahx! my erjie sae we both look so wrong...

pic at ah ma hse...the cousins...9 of us!

headed down to great grandmother hse after tat...stayed for awhile then went to my dajie's godmother's hse...then to my another relative's hse...then lunch + dinner at pizza hut...(thankfully..no more KFC this yr)...then headed to my neighbour's hse...n finally BACK HOME...then my cousins came over...n yup...tats abt it...

todae's income: LOW

i miss u!

YAY!!! HALF DAE TML HALF DAE TML HALF DAE TML!! whee~ =)

and after tat will be holidae all e way till MONDAY! =))

my boy was so sweet to come find me at imh after my work...headed down to ps...dinner n shopped for his shirt...but apparently he didnt get any...went walkin ard...get my gv card...n headed home.....

work is boring...binding n binding n more binding...photocopying n photocopying n more photocopying! i successfully sustained 7 cuts on both my hands...all thx to e papers...grrr..n MORE binding TML...oh my..i think im a pro in bindin n photocopyin alreadi =x

NICHOLAS ANG!!!!!

For the benefit of those wondering whats that UNGLAM pic.. let me show it to you guys again..
hope chwee doesnt delete it away AGAIN.....

my boyfriend is so CUTE! but too bad...im deleting tat UNGLAM pic away! hahx =p

HEADACHE!!! ouch! =(

felt so down e past 2 daes...n i cant believe tat i actually cried...cried for no reason...alamak..is tat depression?! but i depress for wad?!! cant think of wad to wear for work?! dun wan to work?! hahx...i seriously dunno also...

but NOT to worry...im alright alreadi =)

n i think im turnin into a PINEAPPLE TART realli SOON! mummi been busy makin pineapple tarts for new yr n im busy eatin em up...to the extent tat my mummi had to stop my sis n i frm eatin..otherwise is like a 'wu di dong'...no matter how many tarts she baked...it will never fill up the container...hahx...n pineapple tart is fattenin! n i ate like dunno how many...oh no! im goin to stay awae frm em...reallli...

workin tml...i dun realli dread goin to work...but is e idea of thinkin wad to wear for work tat turns me off....I NEED MORE CLOTHES! went shoppin wif sis todae...but i just cant find smth tat i like...=( how saddenin...n i realise i dun hate heels tat much anymore...gd sign...cox it will probably accompany me for e next 4mths or more...

was tokin to huixian online...abt alevels...it seemed as if i took e papers years ago...hahax..but its onli like 2mths ago tat alevels ended...n my brain has stopped functioning since then...maybe if u ask me stats...i would probably haf forgotten how to press my gc alreadi...hahx...anywae...everyone askin me wad course i wan to take if i go uni...but i alwaes sae i dunno...hahax..sometimes is not realli tat i dunno..just tat i dunwan to think tat far...i dunwan to be disappointed wif myself...wad if my results cant make it to e course tat i wan...then wads e pt...e higher u aim...e greater u fall...n i dunwan to find myself in tat state...lets just take one step at a time n see where my results can bring me to...n i onli noe one thing for sure...i wan to work smth related to healthcare n tats all...

i miss you.

im feeling so #$$#$@#!^&@!@!!!! =((((

HAIX.

wads wrong wif me?!

finally a chance for me to update my blog...

SUNDAY 20/1
boyfriend turned 20...soooo HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING! =))) had dinner wif boyfriend's family then went over to his place for cake cuttin, stayed for awhile n he drove me home...

MONDAY 21/1
first dae workin in imh...not too bad...colleague brought me ard the place...my supervisor treated me to lunch...everyone's nice here =)) no more answerin of calls frm residents, no more walkin ard takin files, no more openin of letter box...much different experience...n boyfriend got me so worried later in e evenin...my silly boy played soccer n fell, knocked his head n forgot what happened on tat dae...ended up in NUH at night...his family n i headed down to the hospital to see him...he was fine by then...waited with him for the admission to the ward, waited for him to settle in n uncle drove me home...reached home at 1am plus...

TUEDAY 22/1
tired! work as usual...slightly zombie-fied...=x ended work at 6pm, headed down to NUH to see my boy...by e time i got there was like near 8pm alreadi...his parents came not long after...stayed for an hr plus n uncle drove me home...

TODAY 23/1
my supervisor is on mc... so i got e chance to blog! n i made my first ward visit todae! to the geriatric ward. not exactly wad i expected to see, probably cox they are elderly...so still alright...but it gets kinda sad when u see them...lets hope i get to go to different wards next time...

n boyfriend just msged me n tell me he got 10days mc!!! ahhh...y so many daes of mc when i haf to work!! =(

im currently just waitin for time to pass...easy earned money todae! hahx..okie..better not jinx myself...later i get tons of work to do tml =x im zombie-fied again. im so slpy.

finally a dae for me to warm the sofa...

anw, i've ended my work at the condo...now is to wait for em to send me the cheque =))) n NOW, im goin to start work in IMH on mon!!! im lookin forward to entering the wards actually..i think is a gd opportunity to see for myself how things are like...but to work there for 4mths...hmm..n on top of tat...i cant wear jeans n tees....HMMMM....i dunno how it will be like =x n im afraid e job wouldnt be easy =x hmmmmmmmm........

how i wish everydae is a sundae!!! argh. e thought of waking up at 6.30am tml...squeezin wif other ppl in buses n train, walking down to e bustop, walking to e condo, endless things to do at work...MAKE ME WAN TO STAY AT HOME!

BUT THEN

thinkin of the $$$$ i'll get....I'LL ENDURE!!! just another week or two...

i miss u!!!

haf been soo soo sooo busy to update anything...

just got a temp job to work in a condo for abt 2 wks...n is all e way at yew tee...okie..it sounds far...but actually it isnt realli...just e walkin part tat turns me off n e nva endin expressway frm sengkang to woodlands =x

e boss asked me whether i mind workin till e end of jan...but im still waitin for more job offers frm e agency...n i prefer working in polyclinic or IMH!!! hahax..tat dae e agent called n asked me whether i am interested to work in imh...hahax..how interestin would tat be if i realli work there...more happening...hehehx...condo job is abit tiring...residents love complaining over e slightest issue...=x but apart frm tat...theres nice colleagues n boss...so tats fine at least...just that im new...n there's so many things i dunno n im tryin hard to rmb everythin tat i ought to rmb....hmm...nvm...earn some $$$ first while i wait for a better job =)

is a saturdae todae! but still...i haf to work half dae...zzzzz...but is easy earned money todae cox theres nth much as e office is undergoin renovation...so e server was down...i cant help e resident to book facilities, neither can i print any letters cox e connection was cut off too...so i was basically sittin there, reading papers or tokin to colleagues n occasionally, picking up a couple of calls...

after work, met boyfriend at marina sq for movie, walked ard marina sq n suntec...then there was this furnie lady workin as those weddin planners kind, came n approach us...so furnie lar...she was sayin gettin married is a matter of time n blah blah blah....n asked whether we interested not...hahax...then boyfriend was tellin her we are too young...hahx...n we walked away luffin...then we had ice cream at andersen n went taka to look for his dad n boyfriend drove me home after tat...

IM SO TIRED! i think studyin is better now. now that im out sloggin everydae, i yearn to be at home...grrrr...

i miss u darling!

now i noe e privileges of being a student...is so expensive to travel! grrr...

and I NEED TO WORK! y cant they offer me a job tat pay higher? or jobs tat doesnt need to do admin stuff? ahhh....nvm. random thoughts.

was out wif sis...went lucky plaza to restring her tennis racket...and look for her shoes...we were too lazy for any shoppin ydae...so we just found ourselves a place, to sit n drink smth...headed down to ps after tat to help our mummi buy stuff..sis left to meet her bf...while i spent like 1 and a half hr, killin time in ps before i headed down to clementi to look for boyfriend. dinner at clark quay and we sat by the river, talked and watched ppl play tat bungee thingy and the xtreme swing...smth new i guess...headed home aftertat...

n im gettin muscle ache everywhere...just by pickin up balls...duh =x

im sianed! sis suggested playin tennis later in e afternoon...yes! means i'll get to exercise n run ard pickin up balls...=p hahax...watever it is lar huh...can run ard can alreadi...need to exercise le...n boyfriend drove me home ydae! hahax...he looks so shuai when he drives =p nvm. random thoughts.

jen is currently entertainin me online. hahax.

REFLECTIONS

the yr 2007 came to an end. a hectic and busy yr indeed, but at least, i think is a happy yr despite all the endless mugging sessions because i have all my friends wif me, especially the fairies who stood by me when i needed em and gave me the moral support to continue what i felt like givin up. thx fairies! not to forget, we were retarded and did so many stupid things that probably wouldnt happen without u all =p

fairies do exist.

n yes, im realli goin to miss wearin sch uniform. is such a chore thinkin of wad to wear all the time. n yes, O6S212...i probably wouldnt forget this class...although our class was kinds spilt into many cliques, but we had fun together as one class too! i'll miss playing NETBALL!! realli...cox netball kinda change me somehow...i probably closed my eyes when i chose my cca...hahax...but im glad, it wasnt a wrong choice cox i had alot of fun wif the gals despite me complaining how tiring it was all the time.

ive crossed yet another obstacle...and tat's alevels, i think it left an impact on me cox i still dream of it sometimes. i dreamt i went to the exam hall without preparing for it and i woke up feeling so worried and panicky just to realise tat it was nth but a dream. come to think abt it again, PLEASE DUN LET ME SCREW UP A LEVELS!! plsss....

definitely, 2007 was a yr tat the most random thing could possibly happen. im glad boyfriend was wif me till the veri last second of 2007 and the very first second of 2008. we managed to catch a glimpse of the fireworks frm far =) u probably wouldnt haf realise how much u haf helped me during my preparation for alevels. ur words of encouragment, sweet msges, chocolates and sweets, phy and maths solution bks kept me going. i appreciate all the things tat u've done all these while and i love every moment tat we spent together. keep it going!
i love you darling! hugs! =)

thurs

6d bbq! hahhax...is amazin how we haf nva seen each other for sooooo long n yet e moment we see each other...we got so much to sae =) we were playing games at night...n the loser had to drink a spoonful of coke+honey+chrysanthmum tea+curry+veggie+tau pok.....n guess wad?? i was so suay can...cox the first time u lose, u drink a spoonful..second time u drink 2 spoonful n so on..ended up drinkin 9 spoonful of tat horrible mixture plus ate one tau pok...so disgustin can...everyone headed home after tat...n tingyu didnt realise tat i stayed in punggol also..hahax..we spent like dunno how long tryin to descibe where we stay...n now tracy n doris are plannin chalet for 6d...hahhax...so cute....

fri

went for 2 interviews...okie..not exactly interviews thou...just some job briefing and stuff...then had dinner wif e fairies...hahax...so long nva meet up le...i swear we were realli loud and noisy like small kids in nyny...snatchin cotton candy frm one another...okie..im excluded frm this...cox i was busy snappin pics of em...hahax...

ah sian tryin to steal ryl's cotton candy while she was tokin to ah na

in order to prevent ah sian n ah mok frm stealin their cotton candy..they decided to lick e entire cotton candy...hahahax! super furnie lar...then no one dare to touch it after tat...

dunno wad ah sian doin...dippin cotton candy into water...
addin chilli sauce to it
n it tasted real bad...

ah mok left after dinner despite us persuadin her to stay...so e 4 of us headed to esplanade...
pics!

i left em ard 9plus. i felt so guilty cox poor boyfriend went on hike for 3hrs waitin for me...

sat
st john meetin in e mornin...n sir ben offer to pick me up at punggol...hahax...he mus had felt bad for irritatin me e nite b4 tats y he was so nice to offer me a ride to zhss...hahax..but he's a dangerous driver who dun use earpiece when he toks on phone...n was still msgin while drivin...n he forgot to lock his car...n he cant park his car properly...=x okie..i shall not be too picky...anw...meetin ended at 12...ben wanted to see jen n i for other issues...n aftertat...accompanied jen home n her dog is so cute lar...hyperactive one...n we both headed down to amk hub to further discuss st john stuff as well as to meet boyfriend there...went boyfriend hse aftertat...finished our last episode of gong zhu xiao mei...n i realise...the plot aint tat good afterall...e endin was so abrupt...

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! =D

went pasir ris park 'picnic' wif boyfriend again...hahhax! bought like TEN small breads n ONE litre of soyabean milk n tat was lunch for us =)

sat on e rock...n e furnie thing was tat place was fenced off cox of some construction n we just entered liddat...hahax...n boyfriend surprises me when he wore e necklace for me frm e back =)


christmas present for boyfriend! e bear tat took me 5days to sew...n it's called teddy...

okie...tat pretty much sums up todae...n i need to look for a job NOW!