HAPPENING DAY TODAY! =DDDD my otherwise boring day was made a whole lot fun-er with my group of girlfriends!

this is my group of psychology clique that i cant do without! =) and we celebrated yifang's bday in sch today! hahah! i realised we always do this kind of celebration in sch canteen...hee! anyway! happy birthday yifang! =D

ended lecture and headed over to ryl's house for swim, dinner, chit chat, camwhore session! we are seriously ultimate, swimming also can take photos. haha!

ok, we took alot more photos. but all very unglam and only can be shared within the fairies. haha! bathed and started preparing for our dinner!!!

some jian bing thing...

korean rice cake =D

can u believe we had red wine to go with korean food for dinner? hahaha!!

ah na braided my hair!!! but cant see from the front thou...

its good to take a break in the midst of all my busy assignments and project. it always feel good to be with them =D doing girly things like cooking, swimming, camwhoring, talking nonsense. although they still cant get my alien language at times. hee! see, ppl always good when they belong in a group. its true that the need to belong is a fundamental need!! and people who are deprive of it can result in psychological consequences. HAHA! too much of psychology =x

ok! im off to bed and hopefully i'll be a good girl tml morning and start working on my sociology term paper.

goodnighttttt!

omg! please get my brain working =/ i hate it when i sit in front of my laptop and i just stare blankly. it makes me feeeeel very time-wasting. =x im getting sick of sch. cant wait for the sem to endddddd like seriously.

random incident yesterday
jac: u got water not?
me: yea, u wan ah?
jac: yea...
me: *pour into her bottle
jac: wah, you drink very fast, barely half a day and your bottle is almost emptied
me: *giggles. the water is in my bottle since yesterday
jac: T_T *swallowed the mouthful of water*

and we all burst out laughing. haha! random things that make me laugh. hmm.

pediatric psyc presentation yesterday wassssss...funny! hahhaa! we did a role play and i had to dig out my long lost st john name tag to wear! so nostalgic. my nametag has turned yellowish =/ and we played taboo during group dynamic tutorial today. yea, sounds interesting eh? but not when we have to describe the words all in psychological terms and concepts.

meeting up with fairies tml for a swimmmmmmmmm and cooking korean rice cake for dinner =) alright, motivation to finish up my assignment now! gogogogo!

aim: finish up my sociology assignment tonight! before i continue with another one tml T_T

im looking forward to my weekends! doing expt at minds on sat, going babe's 21st bdae party at night. going for volunteer work on sun at botanic gardens! COOL! ok. more motivation to finish up my work. gogogogo!

i was taking my afternoon nap when i started dreaming about group membership and identity =/ been thinking too much about my sociology assignment =x and suddenly i hear someone whispering to me......

and its none other than my elder sis.

sis: wei! do you want to run?
me: huhhhhhhhh...im slpingggg
sis: i feel like running now leh
me: huh now?!
sis: yea, 4.30pm now...the weather is nice to run now...
me: okkkkkkk..give me 10mins to wake up...

and so i woke up in the middle of my nap just to go down and run 15minutes with my sis. and both of us are addicted to this song below that we can just sing it while we run. haha! assuming there is no passer-by that is because we were like 2 crazy girls running and singing.

张芸京 - 相反的我

我看着镜子后面皱著眉的我
很孤单她有话想说
像天空不会永远都是蓝色的
有阴天你才会抬头
走穿多少的巷弄
笑了哭了
有三四个人爱我

Chorus:
我想要一个乱了
数字的时钟
我想做一个完全相反的我
我在这个世界拼命些什么 (both my sis and i thought this sentence is so apt)
累死我
我有双不听任何命令的耳朵
去享受快乐加上自由的我
我要变成一颗透明的石头
我不会动
也不会痛

像轮胎用了太久 没气了 所以
原谅我 想消失几周
每个人都在选好的轨道奔走
讲真的我想要呼救
请看爱情的脸孔
美的丑的
几千万人都被愚弄了

Repeat Chorus

这个我 那个我
不一样的我
等什么 想什么
怕什么

and i really like the construction smell! it smells goood!

and i did my phone interview with jaclyn's sis! so cute. its good to understand why young people nowadays are turning to blogs, become fashion bloggers etc. when i think back, i wonder why did i even have a blog? what was my purpose then? was it my way of seeking identity and acceptance then? what about now? why do i still blog? does it matter whether ppl read it or not? has blogging shaped my identity in anyway?

ok, i'll talk more abt it after im done with my research.

off to work. i'll tryyyy at least.

i cried during sociology lecture yesterday just because the prof and the video he showed mentioned the taboo word. Somehow or rather, I have yet to get over it despite knowing that i have to. but i just cant.

i have been suppressing it for long. once in awhille it surfaced in my mind but i pushed it back into my unconscious. until one day, i broke down when we were at esplanade rooftop. i cried so hard then and u gave me a hug. that hug was reassuring because that was exactly what i needed. i needed to know that i was not left all alone to fend this. i know i have my sisters with me, but i do not want them to worry for me. you told me back then that whatever he did not do, you will compensate for it and words that you said touched me. you got a shock when you heard what i said but that did not scare u away. u simply accepted it and that makes you different from anyone else.

although once in awhile, environmental cues trigger certain memories of mine...but i'll rmb the monk story you told me. let it go.

can the clock not strike 10pm =(( i feel so nua to do anything now! SAVE ME!

sigh.

do you know? sometimes when im really bored......i just need to talk to my sister and we will laugh like crazy women. i would lie on my bed and she would lie on her own and we will start talking nonsense. we were trying to converse in dialects that day. IT WAS TOTALLY A FLOP. i really want to speak cantonese like fluently! but my 'half-pail-water' kind of cantonese really cmi. and we realise hokkien has no words for 'sorry','please'...does their sorry = paiseh? haha, ok maybe there are words to describe them just that our limited vocab for hokkien fail to let us see it. and its good when both of us study psychology =) cause we can talk psychology to each other =))

here presenting to u my 'look-alike' sister! =DD we do look alike right? with the same type of specs, round face, same hair parting...hahha!! next time i should take a photo with my dajie and you will realise how different we look like...but my dajie is cute too ok...she always like to share her excitement with my erjie and i and we will both laugh like mad especially when she ask us to listen to feng fei fei - zhang sheng xiang qi! my dajie is a nostalgic person. hahah! love my 2 sisters and they have always been with me even during my down-nest, worst period...

been sooo busy with sch work these days. meetings after meetings, discussion after discussion. and it just means more work to do after all these meetings and discussions. sigh. but im pretty much looking forward to my grp's experiment at MINDS. the lady i spoke to was damn nice! she happily allow us to conduct experiment with the exception that we need a letter from our prof and prepare consent letters for the parents. it would have been impossible if we asked other association because ethics clearance alone would take 2mths! and and and, i also managed to get permission from tgyc to do experiment too! cool! speaking about that, i went tgyc to do volunteer work some time ago....and my conclusion is that having taught 2 children at the same age yet presenting totally different character makes me wonder.......i think nurturing is impt.

AND YES!!! CHERYL CHUA! THIS IS DEDICATED TO U!!! although we seldom meet up, but i think we are sooooo close even if we do not meet up, u noe you are always in my little heart. and when i need help....I WILL THINK OF U! isnt that a plus pt?! hahahhaha!!! =pppp so don't mcflurry sardine pok french fries me! haha! im like talking our own fairies language.

the song you sent me, turned me into an emo kid!

I’ll Be Missing You
Puff Daddy

Intro: puff daddy

Every day I wake up
I hope I'm dreaming
I can't believe this shit
Cant believe you ain't here
Sometimes it's just hard for a nigga to wake up
Its hard to just keep going
Its like I feel empty inside without you being here
I would do anything man, to bring you back
Id give all this shit, shit the whole knot
I saw your son today
He look just like you
You was the greatest
You'll always be the greatest
I miss you big
Cant wait till that day, when I see your face again
I can't wait till that day, when I see your face again...

Yeah... this right here (tell me why)
Goes out, to everyone, that has lost someone
That they truly loved (cmon, check it out)

Verse one: puff daddy

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hanging on the block for dough
Notorious, they got to know that
Life ain't always what it seem to be (uh-uh)
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone, we still a team
Through your family, I'll fulfill your dream (that's right)
In the future, can't wait to see
If you open up the gates for me
Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend (uh-huh)
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real, feelings hard to conceal
Cant imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living your life, after death

Chorus: faith evans

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
Ill be missing you
Thinking of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
Ill be missing you

[puff] I miss you big

Verse two: puff daddy

Its kinda hard with you not around (yeah)
Know you in heaven smiling down (eheh)
Watching us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Till the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need (uh-huh) to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts big I just can't define (cant define)
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Making hits, stages they receive you on
I still can't believe you're gone (cant believe you're gone)
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living you're life, after death

Chorus

[faith evans] somebody tell me why

Interlude: faith evans

On that morning
When this life is over
I know
Ill see your face

Outro: 112

Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
Every night I pray, every step I take
[puff] every day that passes
Every move I make, every single day
[puff] is a day that I get closer
[puff] to seeing you again
Every night I pray, every step I take
[puff] we miss you big... and we wont stop
Every move I make, every single day
[puff] cause we can't stop... that's right
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
[puff] we miss you big
*music fades out*

mooncake festival back at zhonghua!


the respectables reunite! wheeeee!

random photo of jackie, peisen n ben

DEAR ST JOHN TROPHIESSSSSSS in the messy st john room

nostalgic path to st john room!

my batch and sir ben!

st john reunite!

UPDATES ON MY CAMPING TRIP!! after uploading so many photos, i feel lazy to blog already -_-''


my pl3240 group members!

our 2 tents!

my attempt to nail the whatever thing in =/ haha!

process of pitching the tent

me and cat

monopoly deal time!

KITE FLYING TIME!

our DINNNNERRRR!!! we were damn silly cox we did our cooking on grass -_-'' and the grass caught fire once in awhile and we panic! haha!

LOVE THIS!!!! YUMMMYY! OUR BIG FIRE TO ROAST MARSHMALLOWS!

this is actually 6am in the morning!!!! we were packing up and leaving for MAC BREAKFAST!

BREAKFAST! all looked so tired and sticky and whatsnot.

right! after all the fun i had during camp, IM SUPPOSE TO CHURN OUT A 4PG REPORT AND A PRESENTATION JUST FOR THIS CAMPING TRIP. zzzzzzzzz way to go!

this video is not for the faint-hearted!!! but really, try watching it. thumbs up if u can watch finish the whole thing. i literally closed my eyes through out. i couldnt bear to watch it =/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wwOXCmjTsvs&playnext=1&p=17184EDE47AE880E



my prof decided to show this video to us during lecture. and everyone went 'omggg...eeewwww..ahhhhh'

main takeaway from the video

who are we to fight for the rights of children, or define what is their rights when the culture in which these children live in do not even see any problems with their doings. it makes absolute sense to them and they see nth wrong with it. taking on another perspective, some may argue that these children are innocent beings, they may not be willing to go through all these pain but rather, they were forced. are we not infringing these childrens' rights then? do these children even have their rights in the first place?

but if we were to rescue these childrens from these violent acts, what is the implication of doing so? of course, anyone who sees the video, sees what the children have to undergo would feel the urge to rescue these children, free them from such violent acts. but often, it is not possible because we will only be harming the children because they would be rejected by their cultures. become forced migrants in the city and live a life separate from their culture forever and this is going to pose yet another problem. we cant be just looking at the context of children itself and ignore the broader context of the culture.

in fact, all societies have their own concepts of what constitute a child's right. these rights are culture dependent and it is not as easy as it seems to just enter a culture and simply change the way they live because the cultures in which these people lived in are the results of hundred of years of socialisation and to change the way these people think is clearly not possible. well, maybe we can if we try inject new concepts to them for the next 100years.

ok! didnt know i can talk so much random stuff. back to work!

TRIOS met up for dinner at 15minutes =D we are a camwhore clique, so let the photos speak for itself! hold on to your breath!

nope, look carefully, these arent chocolates! these are actually lip balm. a present from joyce!

TRIOS! (joyce! trios sounds better than LOSERS right? heh!)

ahh! thats the lip balm! opened from the bottom

wheres my food?!

headed to get my mission completed after dinner with the help of joyce and meijuan! off to mac for ice cream!! slurp!

hahha!! our longgggggggggg hairrrrrrrrrrr....

if only everyday is like today!!!! just sit, eat dinner, chill and relax! but sadly, thats not the case. I HAVE TONS OF THINGS TO DO. and i wonder why my engine is stalled?! it keeps stalling i cant get it started. this is badddddddddddddddd.......

I NEED MY SECOND UPPER!!!! I NEED MY SECOND UPPER! GOODBYE! I GO STUDY!

RANDOM THOUGHTS WHILE I WAS STUDYING

scenario
person A called person B but person B did not answer the call. person B knows that there's a missed call but did not call back. what does this show?

1. person B probably thinks that person A is not important to return the call
2. person B probably thinks that if it is an important matter, person A will call back again
3. person B is probably busy that theres no way the phone could be answered
4. person B doesnt have the habit to return call
5. person B finds returning call will contribute to expensive phone bill

isnt it RUDE when ppl don't return your call?!! sometimes when i call people and people don't return my call, i feel damn annoyed! chicken nugget.

OK! BACK TO MY READINGS.

met up with jennnnyyy elizaaaaa and benjaminnn for lunch at aston yesterday =)) ages since i last saw all of them, except jenny that is. haha! meeting up with them is the best time for the reminiscing of the good old secondary school days, especially st john days! make me feel like going back to help out =( due to our tight schedule, we only HAD 1HR FOR OUR LUNCH because jenny, ben and i have lessons in the afternoon. if only we could all skip school and just chill and catch up, that would be good. but oh well, maybe mooncake festival will be the next meet up. hee.

IM GOING FOR A CAMPING TRIP! IM GOING FOR A CAMPING TRIP! IM SO EXCITED! hee! i always want to go on a camping trip and its finally going to be realised! YAY!! =D so we have our group meeting today to finalise our plans, get our permit and we are all ready! hee! this is my first project ever in uni that makes me feel happy doing it. haha! because we were just planning to have fun and thats all. and thats the purpose for my project! coool.

met up with joyce and sahal a couple of days back for dinner! photos are still with joyce. upload when she sends me. i love stradivarius friends! and meijuan was sooooo nice to entertain me on phone for near 2hrs BECAUSE SOMEONE KEPT ME WAITING FOR LIKE DAMN LONG!! we talked till my phone went flat! and we both realised we are losers! haha! seriously. we cry over the slightest thing. when we are angry, we cry. when we are sad, we cry. when we quarrel with people, we cry. when we are stress, we cry. OMG. losers. and i hate being one. so weak!

mac drive thru for breakfast today! reminds me of ah joyce who couldnt multi-task when she had to step on the brake and order her breakfast simultaneously. haha!

mr yeo treating MPS people for dinner tml!!! and its freaking farrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, somewhere at joo koon! *faints if only i can drive there!!! but even if i could, i probably get lost somewhere. haha! joo koon is so ulu pandan!

im talking all random stuff. i should go read my notes. byeeee!

yishun reading stars was good =) it ended on a happy note. if only i know of it earlier, i would have been able to build better rapport with the kids.

amazing race at changi airport was hilarious as i observed the kids. the kids have to complete several tasks of which, one was to approach strangers to take a photo together. so my group approached this lesbian couple. and one of the boys actually said 'is she a guy or girl?! don't look like guy, don't look like girl!' like damn loud when the couple walked away and i think she heard it! one of the volunteers was like covering the kid's mouth telling him not to say that! hah! but kids are really straightforward and innocent being. and this little boy held my hand while walking. and he went 'jiejie, why ur hands wet wet one?' HAHAH! I WAS LIKE...OMG! and so i tried to explain to him what's sweaty palm -_-'' hah! but the boy was cute la =D

the whole group of us =)

headed to ehub to find na for our project discussion! SO COINCIDENTAL THAT I BUMPED INTO HER WHILE I WAS GOING TO WASHROOM! haha! waited for her to end work and headed over to her place!

I FEEL SO NOT MOTIVATED! i need to get myself to study! i mean really sit down the whole day and study! i seem to lose the drive. i think my life is in a messsy state.

and all my modules this sem requires TONS OF READINGS! mann...

i know i have not been updating for longggggggggggggggg.

busy with assignments =/ and im lagging behind for my readings. oh man!

this semester is packed with activities. i think im doing volunteer work more than im studying! hahah!! but still, the thought of being a part of the committee to plan a camp for children sounds exciting =) AND IM LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!! (VAL! SEE IM SO ENTHU!) heh. more volunteer work to come at yishun and amk! =) sounds good!

i went nus dental clinic last week! THE DENTIST IS DAMN GOOD LOOKING.OMG! but my tooth still hurts after that. it hurts so bad i only had ice cream (easiest to swallow without biting) for brunch, chawanmushi kaminabe hot green tea for dinner today! ok, dinner doesnt sound as pathetic afterall. heh.

i feel happpppy for my sister!!! =D its not easy finding the right man and im glad she did! thumbs up! =D