met up with TRIOS for dinner + shopping today =) and i finally bought my heels after considering for a week!

christmas card + new year card from meijuan =))) THANKS GIRL!

i don't know what got onto me on sunday night. i went to bed at 1am, tried reallllllly hard to slp but i just couldnt. plugged music, listen to radio but i just couldnt slp. and then i started tearing god noes why. i just cried, it was as if the tears were like caged in my eyes for too long, needing to escape. i thought of the past, present and future and the combination of everything just made my tears flow. the clock struck 3am and i was still wide awake with my teary eyes =( night time always make me a vulnerable little girl. sigh. the clock struck 4am, i tried to slp again. and then i found myself waking up at 7am with a mind clogged with thoughts. i decided to head down for a quick run before i bathe n head for school.

emo nemo.

i tried to understand myself. was it a case of suppressing my emotions too much again? or was it that cup of coffee i drank that made me insomia and to think of all the nonsensical thoughts? sigh. it was a case of don't-know-what-happen-to-me night. boohoo! and i realise my emotions are taking on roller coaster rides these days.

maybe someone should just come up with a machine that erases sad memories. all of it. guys are just jerks =( damn. im always at the losing end. whether is it the past or present, im just a puppet emotionally manipulated. RAHH!

that happy looking me was all just a facade.

i don't know why, but i find myself crying. damn. i hate facebook. ='(

thurs
therapy training in the morning, cabbed to school next for my 1hr of lesson and headed to airport following that to meet ryl and mok! and mok is late as usual =/ which explains for the countless photos me and cheryl chua took while waiting for mok..

went tampines to walk around with ryl after dinner and i saw a nice dress at outfitter girls! but, the price is even nicer =( and im still thinking whether i should get that heels....hmmm...

friday

fell alsp during my 8am lecture today =/ i don't know y but i was reallllllly tired. and the lecture wasnt helping me much when the prof was explaining how to use maths to prove infinity. OMG! all the mathematics, sub this here and that etc. zzzzzzzzzz!

im back to blog again. i feel as if im wasting my time =( but seriously, its only 3rd day of school and really, theres nth for me to study yet! im just idling now and i don't like it.

was walking around school bazaar with babe n syl just minutes ago, and they bought magic cards! hahah!! the guy was showing us some magic tricks. heh. pretty impressive =) and it reminded me of those days when u showed me ur magic tricks too.

therapist training starting tml. 6hrs of theory and 15hrs of practical to go. i hope by the end of it, i still have the passion to carry on. i know it isnt an easy job. its like a whole lot of patience and responsiblity on my side to make sure that the child picks up something from me. lets see how it goes.

this semester's timetable is crap! i have to wake up at freaking 5.45am just to go for my 8am lecture =/ and i have a 8hrs break till my next lecture which starts at 6pm! BESST! omg. thats like 8am to 8pm in sch. AHH! and it has been a long time since i touched physics. went in for my physics lecture this morning and all the hubble's law, doppler effect and whatsnot started popping out. mannn...time to appreciate the marvels of physics in everyday life. and the LT was freezing cold this morning i did a silly thing. i felt so cold i didnt even want to hop on a shuttle bus to arts faculty, I WALKED from science faculty to arts faculty just so that i could feel warmer a little. haha!

and i started jotting down deadlines for assignment etc and its making me stress! time to start studying soon man! and i hope i can manage my time having to work 2 jobs now. ahhh!

and cheryl chua was reallllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy sweet n thoughtful and whatever words that can be used to describe. hahah!! she sends me emails and replies me damn fasst just because of something that i told her. THANKS! u make me feel sooooo loved! hee! =DDD hugggsss!!

and allena yan bought me a very cute keychain =) i can mail one of it overseas already =p hahhaha!! thanks girl! hugggsss! =DDD

yay! so my two girl friends made me a very happy girl lately =) seriously, girls understand girls the best. and only girls will do such sweeet things and is all those little moves that make me feel that i should and i ought to be happy because i have supportive friends around me!

ended sch at 12pm yesterday and headed to town. met hs to shop around and met my uni clique for dinner =)) will upload the photos when they are up. =)) and so coincidental that i bumped into eugene on my way home and he was nice enough to walk me home cause it was late.

alright. blogging effectively kills 20mins out of my 8hrs. well done.

i have lots to update!!!

thurs
na and i went ryl's house for gym! but our original intention ended up with us cooking soba and kimchi soup instead. HAHA! so much for wanting to run. but it's always fun figuring how to cook =) its like we didn't exactly know how to cook kimchi soup so we just throw in some salt, chicken stock, some water, put in kimchi and there u go - our kimchi soup! set off to airport for our dinner while na left to meet shaun! airport always reminds me of JC days i don't know why. maybe its because fairies like going there for ban mian. haha! settled down at TCC for dinner and the waiter SPILLED A CUP OF WATER ON ME! ah thanks. i was too nice to flare up. i should have and demand a free meal eh? and we played the slides in t3! hahaha!! all thanks to na and shaun. hah! i always thought the slides are meant for kids but im wrong eh. na proved me wrong. and na told me shaun said i lost weight! WHAHAHAH! pleasing to hear even though i think i didnt.

fri
met up with babes for manicure and badminton! hahahaha!! our ultra weird girly + manly combination. this is my first manicure session and first pillow fight ever with anyone =))

badminton was ultra tiring but it was fun =) i felt as if i lost a kg at the end of the day. hahaha! i was perspiring like those good old netball days and i like that kind of feeling. tired to the max but a sense of satisfaction. haha!

Sat
JB trip with my dearest PRIMARY SCHOOL FRIENDS! =DDD met at 6.45am at woodlands mrt and took a bus to JB!

us while waiting for the other 4 to get our rented cars over =) with just 2 rented cars and a map, we embarked on our adventure =)

our first stop - bak ku teh for breakfast at some famous bak ku teh shop that we drove for near an hour before we found it. pardon the empty plates because we were all famished by then.

on our way to go kart, we met these cowssss...

i thought i will be thrown out of the kart when fangyi and i collided =/ but heng i didnt.

third stop - PAINTBALL!! hahaha!! my funnny sch mates...

the group of us! =) i concluded that paintball is SCARY! initially was alright until i start to see one by one getting injured by the impact of the paintball =/ all the swells and bruises. omg. the girls gave up playing after we played like 3 rounds while the guys went ahead. it is such a cruel game. i don't want to injure others and neither do i wan to see myself getting injured.

the guys went on to play archery. rm5 for 15mins! cheap eh...

entertaining ourselves while in the car...haha!

waiting for our fooooddd

ended our day with a very sumptous seafood dinner! yummmmmmmmyyyyyyy =D thumbs up! it was an exciting day spent with my pri sch mates =) we got lost along the way even though we had gps and map. haha! we were like driving round n round finding the right route, stopping by to ask people for directions etc. and the most exciting part comes in when our drivers are probational drivers. ahahhaha! we were all screaming inside the car when he almost hit the barricade, when he got too near to a car/curb, when he went over humps and everyone almost hit the roof of the car. hahha! a good day to end off my holidays man =)

i just bidded 894 points for a freaking elective module and the winning bid was 891! i don't know if that is a good or bad news because now my poor general account is left with nth but poor 3 points =( oh well.

i bought nail polish yesterday =) suppose to be painting my nails with babes on friday but i couldnt wait, so i went ahead. haha!

pretty right! heee.

i chanced upon this while my mum was cleaning the house! all the passport size photos from young till now! HAHAHA!! all the unglam-ness =/ i never look good taking these kind of photos...haha!

this is totally random but a straw can poke through a potato! am i suppose to know that it can? or everyone else is same like me? haha!

and after a good talk with allena yan my 24/7 companion, i have decided to take "atypical development and language"! i hope that is a right decision on my side. i really didnt know whether to take adolescent psyc or atypical and she asked me 'what exactly do u wan to do in the future?' AND THAT STRUCK ME! ok set, atypical development and language then =)

damn. cant wait to end work. cramps and i feel like puking already ='( and i still have to bus n train n walk home =( teleport me home someoneeee...im dyingg..

photos from st john chalet!

the survivors who stayed over!

photos from countdown! =) met up with S11, my first three months jc class! we have not met for 4 yearssss! dinner at coffee club and drinks at helipad =)

this is what happens when guys drink too much...

gooodbye 2010!

just recharged after i came home from 2e3+ chalet =) i actually didnt slp at all! haha! but i KO-ed when i reached home. heh! it was nice catching up with ppl whom i have not met for really long and even if i had met them, i didnt really have the chance to sit down and have a good talk with them either. so yunting and yiling became my chatting buddies thru the night with val and jean popping over once in awhile. heh! =)) ended the chalet with a good mac breakfast with yunting!

this is a little bit random, more photos for girls' night out =) haha! add on photos to my previous entry...

our very yummy cream pasta with everything cooked with just a rice cooker

and these hotdogs almost exploded at me when i opened the lid...forgetting the fact that its a pressure cooker =/

ITS THE LAST DAY OF 2010! u know, when it comes to the last day of the year, we always do reflection. so here's mine....

in the year 2010, i see the change in myself, i see myself grow, i see myself mature. i know what i want in life and im working hard towards it. hopefully, i will achieve what i set out to achieve. there were ups and downs in 2010. but despite the down period, i have learnt to pick myself up again and move on. it was a tough battle, a battle on my own. a battle against my mind. but i know i have gained something out of it when i emerged victoriously. im always amazed by the way our mind works. how our mind possible controls the way we behave act and think. how positively reframing your mind helps us to overcome the impossible and helps us gain/draw strength from it. but sometimes, too much of positively reframing my thoughts make me wonder. am i being too simplistic to this complicated world, am i being too naive, too idealistic? am i protecting myself just so that i wun get hurt anymore, that i chose to remain in the dark? i don't deny im someone who thinks alot. simple little things and i start to wonder whats the meaning behind it. were the things or effort that i have done for u ever appreciated? if it is not, then what does that mean?

damn i hate reflection sometimes. it makes me cry.

whatever it is, i close the chapter of 2010 and welcome 2011. may it be a gooooooooood year!

alright! got to get changed to meet my friends for dinner!

roars! PLEASE LET ME GET THE ELECTIVES MODULES THAT I WANT!

atypical development and language OR adolescent psychology? i need to drop one of it and i really cant make up my mind because they are both interesting!

had a good run to punggol jetty today! and i ran more than usual =) thumbs up! i need to do more runningggg and less eatingggggggg...

accompanied my sis to the airport to receive linus...haha! i seriously have nth better to do =p

ps: come back soon dude! don't go mia and reply emails pls!

back from my macau trip with 900 over photos in just 5 days =DD haha!! we are the camwhore family! =p



macau trip was like an adventure with the loss of our luggage when we first set foot at macau! this got my mum so worried! hahaha! but no worries, we found it back eventually with the help of the airport staff =) soon after we left the airport, we got cheated by some random ah peh telling us there isnt shuttle bus from the airport to our hotel WHEN IN FACT THERE IS! ended up, we had to transfer 3 shuttle buses just to get to our hotel from the airport. but it was fun la, hopping up and down shuttle buses, looking at map and asking around. like backpacking like that =) AND their transport system is BAD! too long a story to tell but i would say, it is always better to walk in macau given its small size...and we did walk the entire macau!

this entertainer decided to entertain us with his magic when he saw my sisters and i stoning at a corner in the mall =)

but macau got a little boring when it came to day 4 =/ because we have already walked the entire place, visited all the attractions and sites and whatsoever, eaten/tried all the food...but still, it has been a nice time spent with my family =)

chalet with the babes! =) its the first time i go chalet with only 2 girls! hahaha!! a pity allena and rousi cant join us! but its ok! another time =)

our first night out together =D

lets backtrack a little....

Saturday
helped out at camp mumbo =) and believe it or not, it's my first time sitting on a lorry! HAHA! im such a noob. my entire saturday was just spent at east coast park and at deyi secondary with the kids. THE KIDS WERE SO ADORABLE I FELT LIKE HUGGING THEM. and theres a 3 year old girl who came for the camp as well!! but trust me, the facilitators were worn out baby sitting her. heh. heng im just a helper. go there to play with the kids only.

Sunday
headed to benjamin's house in the morning. played monopoly deal while waiting for the cadets to prepare their food for picnic. and what with the craze over monopoly deal nowadays eh? i see people playing monopoly deal while waiting for train?! omg. hasnt this game been in the market for like very long? anyway, headed to marina barrage for our picnic and kite flying =)

i swear i feel so old when i went back! but it was good in a way because i got to noe more of my little juniors now. AND I SWEAR IM NOT GOING TO BE UNDER THE SUN ANYMORE! so much for wanting to turn dark! tgyc camp got me dark a little! then an entire day spent at east coast during mumbo camp got me darker. THEN, kite flying at marina barrage got me roasted! now im like some aunty who seeks for shelter under the sun =/

monday

behavioural observation session at the family's house today. i would very much want to do something to help their son and i hope they hire me! but a part of me feels scared because im afraid im not up for the role as a therapist. well, lets see how it goes eventually. headed to yew tee at night for work and home sweet home! going out everyday + under the hot sun + slping late at night + waking up early in the morning = FALL SICK =(

today

met up with meijuan to shop around bugis =)